Large doses

Looks like Psychosis hearing things seeing things

Large doses of drugs stirring brain believing wings

Now I’m losing myself fusing myself to self harm

But the Thing with that it’s just one more thing I have to hide

Issues sing war thing habits ride

I’m too numb looking for a way out

Am I dumb as these day go south

Now I’m young and reckless demons sung gave me necklace

It was a noose gave me suicidal thoughts they said but you decide

Couldn’t get a loose after they threw me in the cell of being blue inside

I was so scared of fucking up I Toss people away now who reside

Got too comfortable ended up fucking a relationship

I hate being vulnerable we were best friends now we’re just friends

Thought it was until the end for real and then I saw that was a fairy tale

I was having internal conflict trying to wrap my head around now I’m not very well

Can’t do suicide I don’t wanna be a inferno convict but these I’m looking frail

You ever took a bunch of pill enough to kill someone

Just to feel something you a numb one

You ever wonder if you were gonna survive yourself because you aren’t in control

And it’s thunder and lightning as you fighting in it’s hard to thrive stay alive it takes a tole

Ever feel I rush of sadness because you’re ashamed of the cuts you did

Won’t fuss in this madness kept it in so I keep this glove on

They say I’m here for you what’s gone and I don’t wanna talk about it now

Don’t gotta fear it dude I ain’t leaving I can shout it now

But I’m thinking like damn they like rob is this rob is that

Well he’s gone in-fact at least he’s not a sobbing rat

Took a bunch of prescriptions then I put on the mask

By lunch I lose my appetite but I bite this beef fast

You mother fucker now you got another lover after your 6 ditch your ass

Heard them boys Bitch your ass life more sorrowful then me

Sorta fool my whole family they don’t know the secret razor blades I keep

Savior made a hiding spot for them