CHALLENGER'S RAP

• i weep
• soul searching
• all these hours working
• ruminating on everything
• i would go back to do it over again
• this scar on my name
• yea, i have to wear it all the same
• never forget how bad things became
• yea, i've been down
• wearing shackles and chains
• believing i need all the restraints
• i guess that's the past
• today i won't complain, any more than usual,
• never want things to be so cruel
• do my best to follow the rules
• my rebellious heart wants to live in the cool
• my sadness burns anew everyday
• too many relationships lost
• all the times i've misspoken
• all the trust i've broken
• life, my infernal creation
• walking the wrong path, going straight into the flames,
• fate of the faithless, the opposite of greatness,
• more than heavy, a lead weight to the weightless
• regret eating at my innards
• errant student using his knowledge as a blunt instrument
• the worst kind of onerous
• no honor in this
• hard to spend time not feeling worthless
• karmic bondage
• debts way over my head
• records that better be left unsaid
• greedy bastard inside my head
• wants to take it all and then just lie in bed
• full stop.
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• try to open on a note of hope
• like, we've come so far,
• just one more step
• and we can go anywhere from here
• banish the darkness, banish the fear,
• even if i remain alone for years
• it's okay, i need to continue counting my tears,
• and let my wounds heal
• cuz no matter how long it takes
• it's at the hands of mercy that i kneel
• and the stakes are very, very real.
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• into the hands of others i have leapt
• there's only going forward from now
• i know things really haven't been going so well
• but i pray, do tell
• how does this story end?
• all i know is that the future awaits
• and if i'm not already too late
• i would really like to go out on that first date
• no pressure
• just chill
• let me know about what you're into
• i like to listen and respond,
• create an opportunity for calm
• allow the bond to build
• i promise to do my best to be honest and loyal
• making our way along love's trail