DEFENDER'S RAP

• All the things I hold dear, slowly slippin, lost to fear
• I lost another one, Wolf said another one gone, dead by gun
• Another one overdose, couldn't handle it, they just choked
• Pressure went overload, swallowed some pills n spoke
• The last breath he ever had, fore he shot himself, thanks to his dad
• Sorry to all of you go, wish I was there for you
• When you needed me most, I promised to care for you
• Then I left you alone, no one there for you
• I pictured you dyin, sufferin again, saw the air from you
• It slipped through your lips, the final secret, like a key and lock combination
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• But you no longer safe, sorry to be responsible for your fate
• I'm sorry I was so late, wish I could take back all them mistakes
• But it was up to fate, I coulda prevented it, the date would just change
• Never knew you was filled with rage, always hurtin, wish you had better days
• Just let me know when I reach the gates, I know you there, you said you'd wait
• I know the clock ticks by, the time just aches, waitin for me to die, it's my time for fate
• Why am I still here?, especially if you ain't, I ain't shown tears, not since a girl hate
• Not since 2Much's incident, I'm sorry I couldn't help you
• Used to stay up all night wit you and Wolfy, now you cryin in a corner, feelin lonely
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• Not one day go by, them memories don't fade, I'm still gon try, from now n for days
• Insanity, rest in piece dawg, Wolfy keep your name
• We put you up, remind them, puttin you on display
• Everyday we struggle, tryna stay on top
• When we fall n die, the world wouldn't stop
• Sad to admit, but sadly it's true
• What I wouldn't do, to trade me for you
• Lost some friends on the way, some things don't change
• Emotionally grabbed, then things fell flat
• I'm sorry it happened, simply like that
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• There were those times, like Wolfy, I'd wanna die
• I'd join Insanity n the rest, lost them n failed the test
• Just tryna lighten a mood too dark, no laughs, I lied
• Tried to shed light, the darkness tries to hide
• It lurks in me, deep inside, then it comes out to seek them guys
• Maybe I'm responsible for everything, maybe I killed them mentally
• All I have left are the memories, they always leave me empty
• Never know when somethin hits me, unpredictable emotions n abilities
• Tryna right the wrongs I made, instead, I'm left, directional mistake
• RIP to all of them Gs, I miss em all, they in my dreams
• Hopefully, just hopefully I'll be joining all of you Gs
• As I lay me down to sleep, escape the facade, it hits deep
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• Everything crashes at once, startin to think I'm the one with the gun
• Was I responsible?, Am I the one?, Did I kill them all?, Was it all my fault?
• All this time I try to stall, I question myself, but informational checks, I can't withdrawal