DEFENDER'S RAP

• Apologies to Lizzy, I know you ain't miss me
• I know you been listening, friends before, a gift to me
• Never meant to let you down, but I went too far again
• Stuck on an old record, record a note to play again
• Coindrop, I appreciate the shout out
• When you was spazzin out, your voice the loud sound
• Echoes in my ears, tellin me what I wanna hear
• All the things I hold dear, slowly slippin, lost to fear
• I lost another one, Wolf said another one gone, dead by gun
• Another one overdose, couldn't handle it
• Pressure went overload, swallowed some pills n choked
• Sorry to see you go, wish I was there
• When I was needed most, the space was bare
• I was gone, for that I'm sorry
• Insanity got me, should I let it go?, hardly
• Then a doll lost, ain't no Barbie
• Wasn't perfect, but she was a heart thief
• Stole my heart, had me emotionally
• Thought I was playin, but she was the most to me
• Didn't know everything changed, everything got erased
• Lost memories chased, never finished the race
• Still tryna chase everything, lost in an empty case again
• Spiralin down, sometimes I wish I'd drown
• Another man down, flipped like a frown
• Upside down, another world, honestly
• Makin mistakes, people hatin, constantly
• The train still runs, no tracks in sight
• And still I run, don't look back for sight
• Those memories might have been the last, memories are supposed to last
• Like an expired can, no goods, I'm last, another date gone by, I passed
• I didn't die yet, still the thought is terrifying
• Can't tell you how many times I've died inside
• But if I died inside, how am I still voilent, I
• Feel like I been cryin inside, my whole life flash in my eyes
• Think I might've died, this time a white light in sight
• I think it's finally my time, tear my heart outta my chest
• Dressed, my personality masked, like them dancers, bet
• Am I soundin cocky again? And shout out to the Doll n DEATH
• Sometimes things out again, no electricity, so I'm drownin guests
• But I'm the guest, to my own body, I'm my own threat, I never meant nothin wit yo girl dawg
• There was a time, for her I held the world off, guess now it reversed, I'm the world you hold off
• Look at your girl, tellin her to hold on
• Both arms squeezin your neck, she tryna stop from fallin off
• Tried to help, but I was wrong, blinded all along, like a deer in headlights, I'm blinded beyond
• Haven't gone to infinity and beyond, but man, Infinity's in the land beyond
• There ain't a day go by, things pass, but that fear's alive
• It stays inside, stuck inside me, myself it hides
• There were those times, like Wolf, I'd wanna die
• Just wanna fly, up to the clouds, then I, drift off to sleep, lost from reality
• Take another hit, things passed, like common objects
• Tryna stay on one thought, it's a struggle, my mind is gone
• I can't find no one, alarms sounded, so I try a song
• Scattered mind be-gone, a magician, tryna light it up
• When they said to hit n pass, the girl done hit, then she passed
• All I have left are the memories, they always leave me empty
• Never know when somethin hits me
• Unpredictable emotions n abilities
• Tryna right the wrongs I made, instead, I'm left, directional mistake
• RIP to all of them Gs, I miss em all, they in my dreams
• As I lay me down to sleep, escape the facade, it hits deep
• Everything crashes at once, startin to think I'm the one with the gun
• Was I responsible?, Am I the one?, Did I kill them all?, Was it all my fault?