DEFENDER'S RAP

• so you just gonna take all the fun, run out with this ghost in your mind?
• oh so now i expect you making tons of... babies? /
• how would you fuck a ghost? /
• is it yet moisture or do ghost condense first? /
• I'm not ghost person, but i do ghost persons... /
• shit's been crazy lately i've tried suicide 3 times /
• all failed, what a failure mustn't i be? /
• Don't get me wrong, i don't advocate towards self-killing /
• but this would be my only self-healing, from the traumas /
• the comas after downing vodka like it's a bottle of water /
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• Should i keep being the nomad on his notepad going mad on a digital paper note? /
• Or was it four times a charm? Cause i'm in form doing some harm, to myself tho /
• The odds of a life and alive aint a far cry from eachother, but it really takes one /
• before you get to know the other /
• yeah fuck it i was battling but i like battling myself, not really but lately or fucking for as long /
• as i remember have been doing so /
• why? i don't know life's not what i hoped for /
• And that hope came only after i noticed my life's is different. /
• Me, i'm different. Autistical loser with inabilities so much you'd think i'm collecting these /
• Fun fact when i was born i was pronounced dead, so every birthday wish hits different /
• and by getting older i only see that it's hindered me /
• How to cope with it? either drugs or hell strap a rope and just hang it!
• dangit! I won't condone this, only for myself. Cause lately it's been that vacine /
• you wished you only couldve seen