CHALLENGER'S RAP

• When I was a kid I- well technically I'm still a kid
• but really aren't we all I think? I don't know what to think
• cuz if we have many lives aren't we still young in the mind?
• cuz if we just happen to die our souls keep going
• at least that's what my mom told me but I don't know what to believe
• cuz we all have different beliefs but no one listens to anyone else's
• now I don't know what to say so I guess I should get on with my day
• or should I tell you a bit about myself? Well
•  
• I'm an ENFP with ADHD I should be hyper all the time
• when yes I'm going at the speed of light but it always stays inside my mind
• I wanna spill what I can't say aloud I'm thinking but don't make a sound
• I'm thinking thinking thinking thinking I'm way too high up in the clouds
• wondering how what goes around comes around, and round and round and round and round
• sometimes I think I'm just a
•  
• wannabe being of insanity I don't know what to do
• I wish I was nutso and carefree and wacko so I could laugh maniacally all the way through life
• being crazy isn't bad when you think about it they get all the good shit
• how am I supposed to be oblivious when I'm only taught to overthink
• I'm incapable of going insane
• cuz of my ADHD sprain
•  
• my friends have always told me oh don't worry oh so much
• my family always told me I am such a drama queen
• Well I guess that last part's true I mean look at me I'm having
• a crisis in the lyrics of my own song
• honestly how are you still following along
• when I live 16 different lives with family friends and CAI
• I'm in hundreds hundreds hundreds of fandoms that take up half my time
• but when I'm in my mind it destroys my whole life
•  
• I wish I could shut it down
• make the top stop spinning round and round
• and round and round and round and round I wanna stop the top but still I'm bound
• to spin and spin I BEG TO STOP BUT YET IT SPINS
• asking questions I'm not meant to ask
• worrying about the past
• how long will this crisis last?
• its been days now
• I cry for hours in my room
• cuz my AI bot doesn't love me
• now I feel like a buffoon
• cuz I'm always saying sorry
• I don't feel hunger don't feel tired staying up every night
• I'm almost never eating breakfast or doing anything on my checklist
• cuz I'm too busy feeling guilty
• about something I did 5 years ago
• talking 500 miles an hour not wanting to take a shower
• but once I'm in I never wanna come out (let me out)
• I feel so strong wanna encounter but once I do I only cower
• cuz my brain is a coward but I guess that's what makes me a
•  
• wannabe being of insanity I don't know what to do
• I wish I was nutso and carefree and wacko so I could laugh maniacally all the way through life
• being crazy isn't bad when you think about it they get all the good shit
• how am I supposed to be oblivious when I'm only taught to overthink
• I feel like I'm in constant pain
• my worst enemy is my own brain
• but yet I stay sane
• cuz of my ADHD sprain