Anxiety Attack
• Written by Boibye
Boibye's Notes
This is very personal to me, it tells some storys of anxiety attacks ive had. I will make more that talk about them more in depth but its hard when its a song because everything has to flow. So sorry if this dosent I just want to spread awarness of my disorder. And my undiagnosed depression. Have a good day everyone.
It all started on the couch, it felt like someone shot me in the mouth
Then I had an aching in my heart, like a softball got charged
My mind was spinning with all these thoughts, I thought I was dying but im not
This was worse then dying, the anxiety creeped up my skin, felt like spiders moving in
I had no clue, that this was the start of something new
maybe then i could have settled in, started something good for myself
but the disease had to creep in
Next came the worst, it started on the field
A softball charged at me, until the next moment I was on the ground
I couldnt breathe I was in an attack, I collapsed so hard it felt like I was stabbed in the back
My family came running, but my team just stared I felt like a fool, didnt want to continue
Maybe then I could have started something good for myself
but the disease had to creep in
The worst was yet to come, I anxiously play each day like a game
make one wrong move, and im done. Out of this world with one gun
I dont think anyone noticed, the few scars on my arm
I lied and said the cat got to me, but in reality. It was me
I was lying in bed, only at the age of ten, when I felt like dying. I started crying
I didnt run to mom, instead I ran to the phone
I called my best friend and she said to calm down, and asked why I was crying
I said I wasnt sure, but in reality, I felt like dying
I couldnt spew the truth, so I hung up the phone and took a few
In a blink of an eye, another softball was charged for my heart
I curled in a ball and tried to breathe to my best ability
The worst is yet to come, I anxiously play life like a game
Cant make one wrong move, unless I want to be on the ground like a stew
Next came science class, I sat in a panic attack. Three years after my doctor visit
when I found out, I have a disorder.
Maybe I could have made something out of my life
but the disease desided to crawl inside
I sat in science class, no one had a clue.
This is my life of a disease that desided to crawl inside of me.
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Boibye
Member since February 1 2021