ridin'

it's like ridin' a rollercoaster, as I grew older nobody gave me a soldier

turned into a stoner, don't remember what it's like being a sober

as my heart become colder, this ain't no poker

52 cards in deck but I am just a joker

smiling outside, my life's wreak, but there's the pain I hide

pride so much I neve cried my bitch cheated on me, leave that beside

there's not much to hide as I ride this stupid life

now I decide as I put this in my pocket, yes a knife

no I am not committing suicide or get someone's life

this is just me protecting myself not ready for afterlife

painful as it may seem, I still have self esteem

motivated from the life I dream, not asking god for extreme

loads of wealth is just too mainstream

I just wanna keep myself clean, live a life with a queen

the burning desire acts like a gasoline

keeping me from sleeping I am no king

 

problem started with my family, driving me to insanity

want to stay away from another tragedy, hate people

with crooked up mentality, I cannot un-see the evil

wanted to be treated as equal, but my depression's lethal

tired by being defeated, left alone in the unknown

inspired by few don't wanna live like this period

desired a women I know, I won't let this one go

as I see the water drops, down from window

times started getting better a lot, the life I lived I cannot forgot

working hard as I know some things cannot be brought

I was caught, I am no god but I have my squad

might hit a jackpot.