Never Been In Love

Its 8AM bring me my Jameson and milk,

My bitches hair straight she sleepin on the silk,

My brain dusty, thighs lusty, huffin Lucky's,

No such filter, I'm hoping the cancer fucks me,

Pale slivers from my elbow to my wrist,

Reminds Ill survive no matter how hard it gets,

Immortal Shaman, died rhyming, suicidal,

Born outside of phoenix the reason for my revival,

I met her a couple years ago, sinnin the Bible belt,

The kind to save me from myself, shes the kind i felt,

I never did well in sunshine,

Never woke up gunshy, couple times you'll see me pantless on a run by,

Duckin husbands, get what i want when I need it,

Drinkin Shiner in the shower stops the fiending,

Most days I'm just trying to forget you,

And most days I wish I never met you,

Im a lunatic, wish I could fix the Ruger stick,

It jams against my temple whenever I think of you and him,

I grew up on punk music and grunge tunage,

I deal with problems through drug usage and dream lucid,

Oh you know, moscato for bong water,

On a bender half the time, remind her of her father,

Strive to regain some form of stability,

Since the way I'm livin now is likely the thing thats killin me,

Lost in the land of the lotus eaters,

Too much reefer and pills, now im prone to seizures,

Miss the days of Pokemon cartoons and lickin beaters,

Ignorin preachers and gettin head underneath the bleachers,

3PM favorite song was freedom ringing,

Backseat of my saturn, still hear you singing,

Wu drum patterns, space between breath shattered,

Leave the car scattered, steps staggered, where are my keys,

Normally my head in the clouds until she brought me to my knees,

Track 12 Ready to die, I thought we'd be forever,

Together, long walks in all the weather, whatever,

Instead its,

Midnight, nyquil on the rocks, crushed xanax on the rim, relaxation on lock, permanent plastered grin,

The best wisdom comes from within,

Full lotus pose, comatose in my ashes like fuck do I begin?