DEVILS
• Written by JayX
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Angel's
And devil's
Driving
Me mental
I feel
So unstable
So unstable
Makin' me
Suicidal
And my thoughts are like a cycle
I revise them in my mind,
In my mind
No idea what I'm doing out here,
Sometimes I just wanna disappear, drained emotions,
And sometimes when I look at who I am, I'm ashamed,
Praying to God to be saved,
But I'm placed in a cage, locked with my fears,
Filled with built up hate and guilt,
Flip the script, I've killed and ripped the demons I met in my closet,
Hit the target,
Not here for the profit,
Tell me all my raps repeat themselves,
If you think that, examine them more,
Because you're missing something,
I'm here because I have passion,
I don't repeat myself, I'm just a careful person,
It's my repetitive vibe,
Blowing past these r****ed rappers, got a competitive drive,
Kill me seventy five times, and I'll still return with a bomb,
Haunt you again even though I'm alive,
Climb inside your mind,
Leave you mesmerized,
You surprised?
It's hard to rap your best,
Especially when part of it's stress,
It becomes harder when the pressure hits
And you start to see some success,
But I guess unless I start fading into nothing,
I gotta put in my everything,
And I'll put in my everything till I stop breathing,
Why? Because us rappers are hungry, we need something to eat,
So we'll keep feeding,
Symbolistic tongue,
Fingerprint the thumbs
I been broken,
And the fun's just begun,
Opinion driven by my religion,
Sittin' in my prison,
Christ is risen,
Sacrificed in the Christian religion,
Barometric pressure
In the serengeti desert
You don't face that weather,
But if you do,
Better wear several sweaters,
(Chorus)
Angel's
And devil's
Driving
Me mental
I feel
So unstable
So unstable
Makin' me
Suicidal
And my thoughts are like a cycle
I revise them in my mind,
In my mind
Every time I drop a song
It's a bomb,
Walk along with me,
I'll show you what I got,
What I got's talent,
(Talent, talent)
It's hard for me to embrace love,
But trust me,
I wanna be loved,
I'm just afraid I'll be abandoned,
That's what the demons tell me,
That nobody loves me, and they'll just leave me,
And I know I shouldn't believe them, but I do,
I don't know why, maybe I like the bruise I leave on my soul
When I release the darkness inside of my conscious,
And I've just begun sharing what they say to me through these songs,
You see, I've got these thoughts inside of my head
They pump remorse into my veins, my brain explodes,
Makes me feel dead, I start to get upset and sweat on the outside,
I start to relive all of my regrets,
Hopefully this makes sense,
Hopefully it's not too intense
(Chorus)
Angel's
And devil's
Driving
Me mental
I feel
So unstable
So unstable
Makin' me
Suicidal
And my thoughts are like a cycle
I revise them in my mind,
In my mind
Angel's
And devil's
Driving
Me mental
I feel
So unstable
So unstable
Makin' me
Suicidal
And my thoughts are like a cycle
I revise them in my mind,
In my mind
Defined by my mind,
Makes me feel confined
Confined
I hate how I'm wired,
I hate myself,
I'm losing in a war of my mental health,
I'm blinded by the pain and hurt
I feel inside my head
And I hate who I am
Who I am
...
Do something with your potential,
Foot on the fuckin pedal,
I'm on a whole other level,
Sittin' at a table of lies with my demons and devils,
Fighting a battle with evil,
Driving me fucking mental,
Careful where you step, might punch you, I'm special,
Doing what they said was impossible,
Aiming to be monumental,
Tons of shit going on in my skull,
Decide to rattle my cage, don't be surprised when I'm not at your funeral,
Shit's hurtful,
Grab my journal and pencil,
I try to have the will to keep it internal,
Serious with every syllable,
Seems like only a few actually care about my struggle
Lookin' for a miracle
(Miracle, miracle)
