Insecurities

Okay I've been thinking on the past

When I was living for the moment, it was just a blast

Fast forward to the present now I'm outcast

trying to outlast, drink to slow the thoughts

That been going real fast

Hammered all the time

It's drilling in my mind

Now it's screw-in-me

Trying to break the habit it just ruin me

Letting my insecurities brew in me

All this pressure, I think need some truancy

Don't tell me who I am or who I'm meant to be

Just give me some time to develop mentally

Unlock the birds in the cage, let them fly free

It's only fair because I wish that was me

So I'm taking a knee, praying to thee

Please can you take my insecurities

 

How can I go?

How can I grow?

Knowing your lost and stuck on a low

Freezing my thoughts, going so slow

Growing in fear, I do not Know

Stop!

 

Feel the rhythm of this song

When ya days are lasting real long

Me verse my thoughts

Like Godzilla - King Kong

Goes back a fourth, Ping Pong!

Back to reality but I'm lost

Like a white family travelling through Hong Kong

Now I'm long gone. Peace out

Trapped from all this self doubt

Wondering, hoped you could figure it out

Wished you could figure it out

It's too late now I'm trapped with self doubt

Stuck in a drought, with a damn pout trying to find a way out

But I can't seem to find a way out

Got me repeating myself, what it's like when you're stuck on the grind

Stuck on the grind, trying to rewind

Trying to find mine, reason for living

Reason for living, reason for cheering, reason for grinning

But I keep sinning, damn my demons are winning.

Cause I keep sinning?

 

Where did you go

I do not know

Am I not worth, the time that we spent

Nothing is truly perma-nent.

 

2:27 cut the beat