dear dad

Dear dad,

 

Where were you?

Why did you leave?

What went wrong?

 

Growing up I had everything

A mother who would have giving her last breath just for me

Aunts that loved me unconditionally

Grandparents that showed me what real love means

I guess I had more then most but

A father that all I needed

And it's the only thing I never had

would have giving anything for that

 

Guys like that came and went in my life

unable to explain why

Mom I know you had to play both roles

and i am so grateful although it left a hole in my life

While everyone had daddy to run to where was mine

Drunk in some bar hitting on the floozy of the week

acting like a superstar

 

Now Christmas has rolled around this time 8 years

Found out I was a sister to be

Didn't even know

You were married Just came home

Said meet your new step mom

What was I to think?

 

You left me mom all Alone to raise a kid on her own

What did you ever do for me?

Disappoints after an other

Got so many kids still

can't call you a father

So many time I have heard

people make excuse for you

Oh he sober now

he doing better

 

That is great I was even toying around with

Letting you back in my life

But you put that bottle to your head

And just like that you jacked every thing up

Am not letting you back in my life

You can forget about that

You couldn't stay sober long enough

for me to be proud to call you my father

 

Only good that came from you was four

Amazing kids I even got a step mom too

Just sad she is forever stuck with you

Wish this was all of the reason why I hate you

But it does even come close only on shrick number two

 

She is only 22 but you put a ring on her finger

Before the divorce ever went through

Got her knock up at 20 and was a mother

Of two by her twenty second birthday,

what kind of man are you

You ruin every females life you ever come close to

Mine, my mothers, even my little sister don't want you

 

When your on your death bed looking back at life I hope you remember

Everything you never did for me

All the accomplishments I ever had

Not one of were thanks to you

Save your breath dont ask for me

Don't worry I won't show my face at the funeral

save a lot of Heartache on family I wasn't close to

your own brother step up and became more of a man

than you could ever be,

even when he was enlisted he still made time for me

you cant even be half the father that he is