Crazy

It's like my thought process is something for therapists to dissect

My good decisions are in a state of neglect

Me and my head cannot coexist

So excuse me if I seem pissed

I'm at war with my own fucking mind

Sanity is just something I'm not gonna find

Then there goes depression

There's some days where I can't even look at my own reflection

Imagine days where you just don't wanna be you

And every goddamned person looks down on you for every little thing you do

Ya there's nights I can't even sleep

And yes I've tried counting fucking sheep

But you see

Even the damn sheep are fucking insulting me

You see I'm what you call bat shit crazy

Thinking the worlds out to get me

But it's not I'm just one small individual

But my thinking process won't get the visual

Neither will I apparently

But I still think this shit awarangly

I can't even count the number of mistakes I made I ain't no mathmaticion

But apparently I can make a mistake with perfect precision

See I'm the out cast of my own family

That's just something they all can see

I don't talk to people I talk to my voices

Reason being to all my bad choices

See I talk to these things that make me regret being alive

Even they say I should just die

But people are just as bad

So this hell I live in is just driving me mad

And every day I love my self less

I'm just under going so much stress

Insomnia is driving me to my brink

Anxiety you're making me over think

Depression let me get out of bed

PTSD stop replaying these horrible memories in my head

Tourretes I don't like the the way you constantly make me randomly twitch

And me just calm down and stop being a bitch

But all my emotions put me against my will

So I'm gonna rely on the help of a depression pill

And bipolar just let me make up my own fucking mind

Are the right choices in life that hard to find

And I can care less whether or not I'm crazy

But the hard thing for me is just being happy