my life

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Mother knows son, but doesn't know his fate

She doesn't know that she has given birth to a mistake

No lie, no doubt, the mistake is me and

If you don't agree you disagree mistakenly

I'm spouting off the top but I'm digging from the bottom

There's roots in my heart when my lips start to blossom

I hate my wealth, hate my health, i would not create myself

Heaven's in my eyes but my mind still waits in Hell

Did God turn his back just to prove to me I need him?

I thought that he was powerful and nothing could impede him

People say He's holding me, people say He loves me but

If I were Him and He were me I wouldn't even touch me

I wish that I could hocus-pocus focus when I'm hopeless

Home is where the heart is, I guess that means I'm homeless

I'm done with the pain so I run from the game

Why is life defined by some lungs and a brain?

Tongue numb from the strain of retaining my complaints

'cuz if you truly knew my shame you'd be praying to the saints

I'm done with being done, done with being numb

Would you look at a baby and then say that teething's fun?

Change is really good for you, it really is fulfilling

But change to me is cancer, the growth is gonna kill me

I'm lost in the void, voice lost in the noise

Choice upon choice leaves me more and more destroyed

So a flick of the wrist and I cease to breathe, exist

This is what I'd do with a genie and wish

Too bad for the kid he didn't have a path to live

You could fill a bath with all the sad wrath I spit

My presence is a fear of the man in the mirror

I won't waste my breath, death's depth appears clear

Truthfully I'm ruthlessly pursuing who I used to be

All this youthful energy is spent on doing useless things