Doing Me Right

I saw you

My father

You screamed BOO

Stole my crew

And became master

Of my only soul

Turning my mind cold

And giving me coal

In your addiction you destroyed my goals

All because I refused to lie in your holes

Formed out of webs of deceit

That burned all shreds of elite

Intellect and Willpower

I did climb the wrong tower

Forced on a life path

Coerced into the wrath

That you must've always felt

But you had

Years of experience, homies from days past

So you never had to finish dead last.

Your shady hotel room stole all my innocence

Your fatal attraction was in your dominance

In the end you chose to neglect

Me, the one who fed your defect.

 

The piece was like gold

Feasting on untold

Memories, Secrets

But you couldn't keep it

Real with your only loyal comrade, best friend

Feeling like Tarzan, kidnapped in a pretend

Reality, neither of us could comprehend

Poverty in spirit, without dignity

The brutality evident in your cruelty

Forced my body to be the calamity.

My mind's greatest asset became invisible

The endless bloodshed made you feel invincible

You had your girl

I lost my world

All my senses conglomerated into one gray mistaken swirl

I took the fall off of the fences, you remained undisturbed

Why

I

Do need love, but you blocked me out,

You called me delusional, Schizophrenic

When without me you'd be balled up, dopesick

You bragged online about knocking me out

But didn't talk about the rest of the route

How in one month you robbed me blind

Then had the nerve to leave me behind

Let me stop to remind

You there is no rewind

I was found.

On the ground.

By a true homeboy gift of kindness

I have grown into one of the wisest

In contemplation I remain honest

I smile proudly with no reason frown

No longer hurting from looking down

Ever finding solace in self- forgiveness

Forever, And that leads to life's greatness.