10:34 (vent)

They are always blind,

They never see your pain.

You never say a thing,

Maybe it explains a lot.

But you’ve been smoking every day,

The pain you feel inside.

You didn't wanna go to school that one day,

Now it's 10:25 you're arguing with mom.

Now it’s 10:30 the waters running again,

You’re shaking once again.

Now it's 10:32

Everything hurts your covered in cuts

And you have the bottle now it’s 10:34

And you feel like your gonna blackout

Till someone walks in the room once again it's your mother.

Next thing you know you can't move.

You're being carried out

Just because everyone was blind

They never cared

But now the voices start up again

It's been years now

Since 8 years old

They never stopped

You couldn’t feel a single thing

And you couldn’t block it out.

“Suicide is selfish why did you do this

You’ve been like this for 5 years now”

And it was too hard for me

You're just too blind to see

Happiness can never last in the house

And you don't get me wrong we loved each other

But every day is pain

And I've been drinking straight every day for years

Every night

This was the last time

Everyone is just too damn caught up in themselves

But I get told the same thing about myself

Maybe I'm that kid

The one who’s messed up

And I write it down on this paper

Blood on my sleeves

Nothing will be the same

Back again

This is all true

This all happened one day

Now I learned to just grab the paper

This is therapy for me

I'm no longer on my knees

My music is true

And everything changed

But maybe not for the better

The pain might end at one point

But I never will know when.

And things changed in one day

And it hurts

Nobody stays

I wish I had it my way

10:34 is something I remember

It will never leave my head

And it would

It slowly becomes a blur throughout the years

Nothing might change

But I hope it does

For the better.