i wanna die

I’m so angry, I’m not happy, life is nasty, I wanna flee b.

I just wanna cry, die, say goodbye and get off this ride

Gun by my bedside, whispers it’s lies, wishes for my demise

So I grab the weapon with the intention to teach myself a lesson

And get my ass kicked in heaven like I’m outside a seven eleven

But I can’t grant myself that wish because I’m a selfish fool

Who won’t use the tool and would rather face ridicule than be a ghoul

People have hurt me, my fists are bloody, I’m going crazy

Lately, I’ve been lazy, feelin’ hazy, wanna break up with my lady

But she don’t wanna leave me see, because she believes I’m not crazy

But it’s for her own safety g. I’m a sorry ass nobody with zero cash

I can’t provide, I just wanna commit suicide. The rope is tied, it’s time I died.

I can’t stop hurting people, suffering, I should get shot and dropped

In a hole to rot as my soul is judged and I’m taught and touched

All I do is hurt, and it’s absurd but people won’t desert, me, they say we family

Why? How? I wanna die now. Somehow I’ve allowed people to love me

I should’ve listened to my gut and shut them up

Im a bad guy who deserves to die, I’ve lied, denied, got into fights and cried

Im so close to drinking, so I stop thinking and start sinking, deeper

Waiting for the Reaper to be my teacher. I wanna die, commit suicide

But I can’t and I don’t understand why I just can’t make the shot land

Bury my head in the sand, everything else be damned

I’m so weak, everything is bleak, the world is grey, time I go away

And disintegrate like the ashes in my tray. Everyday I just wanna lay

In bed, bled out, instead I fight the doubt and keep going

Yet I don’t wanna, gonna OD on marijuana. That’s just a dream, some benign scheme

I wanna die so why can’t I?