My Life Story Part 1

I'm gonna tell you a story no one knows.

The one about my life.

 

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You could say I was one of the lucky ones

I grew up inside of a loving home

I had both parents in my life and I was never worried about food, these things were known

I had no trouble in school cause I was gifted from a young age

I tell you all the good things but you don't know what happened backstage

My father was a drunk and my mother took the full force

Nothing filled the void inside my heart, she was the hate's source

My mother, I bet you didn't see that one coming

I bet you thought it was my father, what he was becoming

I tried to slow the hate from my mother but instead I made it worse

But I broke her down even more saying "I hate you" while I cursed

I was only 12 when that happened, I surprised she doesn't show the wounds

But she wasn't the only one, I was 13 when we butted heads, I took the abuse

 

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My father broke my nose while my mother screamed for him to stop

Surprised he even threw the blows, in my brain the screams are caught

And I sit and replay them in my mind whenever I'm alone

I sit and cry while thinking about the cracks in my life at home

I smoked my feelings away and got into the crowd

I joined a gang and shot some people, they told me I was loud

I lost a piece or two of myself as I dropped it into sprite

I poured codeine and took some pills the devil kissed my forehead, said goodnight

That was the first time I almost overdosed, It still rings through my head

Of all the times I almost died, right there in my bed

Tore into my conscious, I got mental problems now

Never felt a thing but my girlfriend felt my pain somehow

I stayed with her though as I fell into these habits now

I look back and figure out these are things I shouldn't have allowed

I know I told her forever but I needed her to leave then

I didn't know it but when she stabbed me it began

The thoughts of leaving broke into my mind

But maybe I got a story for a whole other time.