Overdose

You know man sometimes the people we love don't love themselves

And we csn try and help them and sometimes they get better

But this isn't one of those times

 

I wish it wasn't this fast never thought this soon you could be gone

but you hit rock bottom and crashed before I knew what was wrong

your mom had asked if it were true and what was going on

ignorant i sat by in silence

ignore it, yeah just deny it

thatll work, why wouldnt it?

It's better than being accused for my suspicion

yeah your innocent and I'm just sketching

about aluminum thats been missing from the cabinet in the kitchen

out of the bathroom I listen and I can hear it crinkling

I look back at all the times that you lied to deny your sobrietye

You'd be nodding off while driving still trying to hide it from me

Wish I'd forgotten how often we were hollering and fighting cuz I was denying your privacy

I'm sorry if my response was wrong,,

but my anxiety was caused by whanews going on behind the scenes

Well you got what you wanted .oh the fuckin irony

 

Behind the scenes

Oh the irony

 

 

I'm sorry I put off finding the right kind of help in recovery

Why didn't we have that intervention when your mother said?

We had the evidence! I met your new friends

Fred, Blake and Jimmy

your face got so skinny,

I'd get you a plate but you'd never eat any

when I looked in to your eyes, saw a different person

Them I didnt recognize and that shits still hurting

Then i realized, and i know this for certain

If you were willing to go through all that

Pain for the smack

You were really gone way before tha

 

(Hook)

So sad so sad

Gone and lost the best.thing I ever had

And you know, you know that I'm sorry

At the lowest, I need you most

You would come and you would come overdose

And you know, you know that I'm sorry

And know I love you so

 

You called my help cold distant words,

but i always kept it 100 and you know that i would

you ask for my help, I told you i got you your good

but you didnt take it my dog

and now look, where are you at, your gone.

you left me, your sister & your mom

i always put you back on your feet

showed you what you couldnt see

But this time I couldn't KP

man i fuckin told you about T

how you shoulda stayed away

when you'd come and complain

Like every fuckin day

So weather it was the H or a blade

at the end of the day, outcome was the same

disregard the bitches, that was part of the creed

But you were hard headed and wouldnt hear it from me

You could not listen even tho it was said om repeat

Followed your direction, cuz big bros got the lead

Then how come im the only one in this car

On my way back to the rez

on the phone with your ma

She's crying and stressed

Worried about the costs so I wrote her a check

Told her it won't be long till I'm there then I'll help with the rest.