Going through a Storm with the r...

(Verse 1)

Trying to keep my life stationary like a masonary

Tearing me down stone by stone and I barely

Keep the wall up how long til I give it all up

The answer is never cause yeah I been better especially when I fill this cup up

I'll rap for the churches hear the pipe organs playing and all together tell the devil shut the fuck up

Why can't my words be filled with happiness and inspiration

Why can't I lead you away from the evils of temptation

Yeah I gave into them urges they purge us and get the worst of us

How am I ever gonna find the best of me be set free from my old love for someone merciless

Wasted thousands on college community been treating me brutally

Lied about a major in psychology then switched it to archeology

just to get the rest of the family who's constantly asking the same question

Just need to become something to invest in fuck the rest is only my suggestion

like the goats floating on top of the water I struggle to swim in

not trying my hardest to put myself out there and struggling to get the attention

I need to make this a living more than willing to achieve greatness with these blessings I've been given

only strive to make my family proud and get my recognition

If I let them down leave me to drown in my mistakes and bad decisions

Nobody not even myself could have prepared me for this state of mind I am feeling

hearts on the ground heads in the gutter used to throw strikes but this is doing a number

on how I'm gonna move further but I just gotta keep building

The future I want the future I need

To be happy again and be able to succeed

 

(Hook 1)

Yeah fuck what that bitch said cause everytime I think about it I feel dead inside

Can't get her out my head and she doesn't seem to care about the pain that she applied

Don't ask me how I'm doing, don't ask how I've been

My mind you kinda ruined so you can find me drinking with my friends

 

(Verse 2)

It's like walking through a Strom without a rain jacket

It's like dangerous addictions that used to be bad habits

It's like alcoholism keeps getting longer and longer

And the drinks that I'm mixing keep getting stronger and stronger

It's like I'm losing my hope and damn motivation

To get out of my bed and continue to keep pacing

My anxiety is at an all time high and it's got my heart racing

You we're my MJ I was your Peter Parker

Days are getting harder and nights are getting darker

I'm struggling to find my spark

That I had once before I even knew what love was cause you left me in the dark

I'd rather sit in my car and just watch the rain fall

Than think about the memories And the pain of it all

Seeing you from a distance

Makes my heart sink in an instance

It's gonna be a cold December Evertime that I remember that you won't be by the tree

A brutal winter cause you won't be there to keep the cold from me

My inner soul can only produce fake smiles

I'm temporarily happy and my depression goes for miles

My introverted ways have taken over and I can barely start a conversation

People ask me what's wrong but I don't give them information

I've always been good at keeping to myself and avoiding confrontation

Search for the light in this dark place but I'm patiently waiting

 

 

(Hook 1)

Yeah fuck what that bitch said cause everytime I think about it I feel dead inside

Can't get her out my head and she doesn't seem to care about the pain that she applied

Don't ask me how I'm doing, don't ask how I've been

My mind you kinda ruined so you can find me drinking with my friends

 

(Outro)

I'm gonna stay humble til the day I die

I know my life is my life but it's not about me and let me tell you why

I only care about making the people who made me who I am proud

They know my dreams and passions and I'm gonna song them loud

The older I get the more thankful I become

I was a loner but couldn't be more grateful and then some

You we're never one of those people and you left me in shambles

Never cared about my ambitions only cared about your intentions and I don't mean to ramble

It tour me apart the last time I saw you, didn't even looked fazed about the hurt that you've done

It's to takes a lot for a stubborn heart to realize you weren't the one.