I remember

Waiting

Waiting at the bustop

Blocking out the gunshots

Running from a home full of Fucking nonstop

Yelling from my drunk pops

had to flee down the block

grabbing us as much stuff

didn’t know wen we’d come

Home spent the day at the park

Or the store with little to no bucks

Addicts and bums

filled the parking lots

Gangbangers selling rocks

Feared them less then his ass like what?

Many time we called the cops

Hes spose to protect us

Instead we Shielding out mom

to not get hit we got strucked

With shit he through a across

The room barricaded with the door locked

Felt so stuck yeah so out of luck

Shit was hard like Nun chucks

no one gave a flying fuck

Nieegbors showed no Dam love

Only moms touch

Felt safe in her hug

No help no wealth so fuxking sad cuz

Coming home after my dads buz

Subsided reunited like nun was fucked up

Mom wrapping up his self inflicted glass cuts

Punching mirrors and throwing stuff

God dam moms was tough

At his side after dui fender benders

Seeing him cuffed

I reemeber cold Decembers and our heat got turned off

Cuz dads paychecks went straight to that one pub

Had us waiting in the car while he got mad drunk

Tired of waiting 6 years old in the cold going home 1 o’clock

at night miles walk

Thinking back shit really sucked

God only know why we didn’t get sucked

In the gang life doing drugs and such

Moms heart and older brothers stepping up

To take the father roll was clutch

I thank them to this day making scraps lunch

Turn on lights scattered rats/bugs

Now we grown old man here with us

Being that father that he never was

That we needed giving his love to his grand children that’s what’s up

bye gons be bye gons hold no grudge

Shit made us who we are kept us strong

Lets me spit remaining hate and rage on

from those days spilled out in this song

(Closure)