Ponderance

I wish I had a warning, I've had to live without one

Changes would be made if I knew this was the outcome

Bitter to the soul, lettin' anger take control

Stuck inside a hole without a rope or climbing pole

I've fallen to my knees and I'm bawling like child

Yearning for some hope, haven't had it in a while

 

Why is there a pen in me with self-descriptive tendencies?

Anything I write isn't even worth a penny-fee

I'm out ink, about to sink, it's way too loud to think

I've gotta find a way to get this mental static out of me

It's killing me, I'm really bout to tear all of my hair out

Maybe if I write it in my blood they will care now

Focus is evasive, I need to find some patience

I know I want to write but I cannot help but hate this

The words have stopped flowing, the fire's not going

I have the same ambitions as the pilot of a Boeing

But I can't...I don't think this is a rant

I'm feeling like a farmer tossing seeds that don't plant

Stuck inside a hurricane falling in the pouring rain

Thrown into the ocean now I'm caught in the furthest wave

I just don't seem to get it, where did my ambition go?

Did I even have it? Maybe I'm just wishin' so.

 

Where has all the hope gone? It has been so long.

Thinkin' I was special, man I was so wrong

Now i see a grave, the date's are written close

The dust and my fingernails; I've bitten both

Diggin' up my body and you're gonna notice one thing

Neither of my index have ever gotten one ring

Tears full of pity, I'm asking you to save them

I'm dreaming of my life, and my life has a grave end

The last thing I'll ever do is mess with a rope

Life has given nothing, so death is my hope