how i see u

how i see u

 

it wasn't love at first sight, i just randomly developed it

never really thought i would get to this point (yeah)

i don't know why, i just randomly got obsessed

but anyone knowing who i am, what is this would not be able to believe it

i guess it wasn't really that serious, but something occured in that current

moment

but i know that it affected how i thought of u in some way

would dream of u some nights, of us being really close friends (uh huh)

the reason i smiled in my pre-sleep was because of that

i watched reverse icks videos to imagine us together

while putting on my earphones and listen' to mel

but when you made fun of me, it was a type of pain i didn't know

my best friend just left after the sleepovers, how did that go..

goin' on a long car drive back to her home

but what she didn't know was how i thought of u and how i resisted crying

seeing your messages

she just left, i was scared to look at the messages

but i eventually did, as you made fun of me, and added me to the group

chat where you said it all (all?)

i got extremely-emely scared, you said it in the school gc

since your one of those whos friends with almost all of them bullies

you say you get bullied too, but you obviously dont as much as me

 

(this is)

this is how, i see you

how i, oh see you

i know its in the past but it still affects me (so please)

you apoligized to me, but i still lpve you so oh

it didnt even matter what i answered with

 

the second i saw it, i had a panic attack

felt my lungs, in my brain

couldent think of a hack

told my best friend eventually because i was so close to crying,

but i knew that i just had to keep my hope up with the Lord

was praying, and praying, while i was basically depressed

outside, in my backyard, listen' to music that helped

my mama didn't know abt anything at all till she found my tiktok account

which was a few weeks later, wish it didn't happen at all

because some girl in my class that i called smelly,

her best friend was mutuals with me and found my video calling her that

immedietaly tagged her in it, i knew i shouldeve deleted the comment

but i thought i was so bad*** for not doing nothing

then i got in the biggest trouble i ever have in my life

and you both, you didnt give me serious advice

my best friend tried to help me, i told one of the others

the other was worried for me being worried but said "whats the worst your

mom can do?"

but that wasnt the point, i just needed you

 

(this is)

this is how, i see you

how i, oh see you

i know its in the past but it still affects me (so please)

you apoligized to me, but i still lpve you so oh

it didnt even matter what i answered with

 

ok, so we on our last paragraaph now

before the chorus break, well, i was thinkin' bout' makin' a cute slow

addictive song

ended up makin' a rap that was super unexpected

but anyways, lets get back on topic

i really didn't mean anything i said

was just with my best friend, and we wanted to be silly

really did not mean to freakin' offend u

if that was so you couldeve just told me

told me everything and i would be the one apoligizing

i actually did it as revenge / karma, didn't know i'd get too far with me being

mean

you called me corny, and spammed a bunch of skulls emojis

you screenshotted all your friends about this

screenshotted everything i absouloutley said

did not care, did not give a shi bout' my feelings

but i actually felt like killing myself when that moment hit

new drama occured, i didnt have to worry abt it

because when my best friend found out, she took it very seriously

told her older sister and her bestfriend who were older than us to kill them

well, online at least, they made it sound like they was defending me

but they really just wanna bully more kids

i knew this would prolly get me made fun of more

offered to just give their tiktok accounts, no fight, but rthey didnt care

now im a usual everyday friend now

you dont know this but im actually secretly a fan now (ooh!)

had to ask both sides if they wanted me to make a gc for them to fight

didn't want them to get involved in my own drama

but my best friend did not let that slide

she made my life what it is now (i love her)

and even tho i cant tell anything to her, i still love her as my BSF, BFF!!!