Short Written

I’m supposed to be off my ass by now, but haven’t found the strength or healing

VA claims stayed appealing, backed up logs stack up long that effects my billing

Barely afforded rent, dirtless floor mat step because no one visits my building

Living room is more dead and empty than a cenotaph, so I’m expressing feelings

Only one said happy Vets day really, you have no idea how far the length it’s killed me

When it seems even the closest ones, have chose to not give respect all year, geez

No birthday wish, or acknowledgment for serving after I’ve deflected fiercely

Attacks from Poland when deployed, my own family or homeland just avoid every single moment to go voice a tenth of caring

Makes me wonder how I would’ve been brought up if I were dead ‘stead here, please

Forgive me for saying that as I’m laying back on the mattress as stiffness wears me

I can’t shift the theory outta my mind I may have been more loved when I’m buried

Staring at foggy mirrors that got me scared, seems all because I just can’t see clearly

Myself, I’m not a hero nor something nearly close, it’s hard at times to stand w/ achilles

Being torn but I’m tired being ignored, but how can you all in your mindset been so guilt free

All senseless filthy things since then filled me relentless tearing that has left me still wish-ing

Every night hoping one day you all can see me, if I were in your homes, I’ll be living stealthy

And mom, I’m still trying my hardest to push through so I can retire you

Ever since I’ve been fighting w/ darkness until I accomplish my desire to

Have you never worry about the bills, but now you’ve been worried about mines as I’ve dealt with pains that require huge

Timing before I’m able to properly walk from all those damn awkwardly falls

I’ll probably suff-er more and more, by the time I’m 50, I’ll awfully crawl

(Look)

I wrote this 11 days ago, I just really needed to get this all off my chest

I know I’m on a descend along this website I’ve been a part of since

Feb 2015, it’s almost been 9 fucking years, overstayed on this bitch

Everyone needs to stop whining, pull yourself together and hold your shit

We will all be alright in the end, glad to meet you all and keep writing til death

Dos you apart if you’re married to the game, and always keep finding the pen

That leads you to be creative and different, expand yourself to a mic and go spit

It’s gonna suck if this website doesn’t end, and this last part is pointless

But stay sharp and focus with heart and purpose, lock your soul in.

 

 

Now everyone, stop bitching about it haha.