forgiving

Yeah

Could you please forgive me more

I know you hate me

While I'm laying in the kitchen floor

I'm still debating

 

Picking up the phone to send a text to tell you that I love you

I know that your fucking sick of me these pills and fucking drug use

And I know you said I'm running but I'm never running from you

I am not afraid to die if that is what it takes to love you

Time was never on my side and you moved on and I guess that's fine

But tell me how you cover up when I'm around

Like I was not the one who

 

Bent myself over backwards for someone who don't give a shit

Turned me into someone that was forced to fucking take a hit

Kill another serotonin just so I can play pretend

And act like you were not the one who up and left me in this pit

 

I'm tryna be a better man

I'm sorry you don't understand

It's kinda fuckin hard to change when my replacement tells me every day

That change won't be something that's in my hands

Fuck...

I pray to god I know I gotta suffer through this just to see his plans

yeah

 

You only say what I didn't do

You only gave me the minumum

I keep on taking these hits from you

Just to run back and get split in 2

While you running off with a different dude

No I'm not dissing you

I am just saying I'm sick of just sitting around because I'm always missing you

Fuck is the point?

Puff on a joint

Blow out my problems in a sequence of clouds so I ain't gotta think of you

fucking that boy

I'm fucking destroyed

I poured out my time in somebody that didn't give a damn if I was in love

or annoyed

Shit...