I don't wanna

I don't wanna carry on with life but I have to live even if it means going numb

I don't wanna keep smiling but I have to smile even if it means buying a gun

I don't wanna act like I'm battling so everything is fine even if I hate myself

I don't want my family to know I'm hurting inside so I hurt inside in stealth

I don't want to say what i'm thinkin so nobody knows that inside I'm screaming

I don't wanna say I'm afraid of love cuz then everybody would be leaving

I don't wanna hurt myself cuz then I hurt others that I know in my life

I don't wanna hurt others cuz i care too much and it'll add more inner strife

I don't wanna feel like this anymore cuz it's too painful

I don't wanna seem unstable