Let It Go

I haven't slept in days

Guess you could say

I've became an insomniak

Well look at that

A psychopath who can't take care of herself

Always begging somebody to help me

Cause it feels like im suffocating

This depressions killing me

Eating me alive

It seems to come as a surprise

That I feel this way

How ironic the kid who always smiles

Feels the most pain

God damn it I didn't ask you to leave

But somehow I know this is my fault

When you left for Hawaii

I just knew I lost it all

But fuck it cause im alone

I should be happy I can do whatever I want

But I don't want to do anything

Unless Im with you

You taught me more about myself that you know

But I know you probably don't even think about me anymore

It's late and im drunk

Cause after you left

I promised myself

I'll never be sober

I'll stay fucked up till the day I just give up

Its a tragedy

You fucking ignore me now

But you used to adore me wow

Shit, what that fuck did I do to deserve this

I said I'm sorry

I've apologized a million times

 

*CHORUS*

 

Guess I'm supposed to let you go

But I just thought I'd let you know

I'll never love again after this

Hope you're happy with your friends

Maybe one day you'll realize

Everything they've told you is a fucking lie

Im sick of thoughts of you

Crawling in my brain

Makin me wonder if im insane

I gave you my heart

But you left me scarred

Broken, guess you never wanted it

But it seemed like you did

Or maybe you didn't

Fuck it I cant decipher why you left

I look at your blog you seem sad

Wish I could help

I only care cause you're the best I ever had

But you hate me

Blame it all on Hazey

I'll sit back and act like your words dont hurt

They dont phase me

Im trailer trash right?

I think about it every night

My ambitions are high

Ima be a star just look at the night sky

But until then I'm just trying to get over you

It's the hardest thing I'll ever do

Cause I was convinced

That we'd make it till the end

But fuck it we can't even be friends

 

*CHORUS*

 

So what do you want me to do

Tell you that I'm over you?

Tell you that it was all a joke to get you to open up and love?

But it wasn't

And what we had wasn't nothing

So stop acting like I never mattered

You know we were something.