Fuck It

I don't know why, I would lie to myself, thinking you was different but it was apparent, you didn't give no craps

When I came in the mix, I just needed another fix, one shot before I see it all black

I didn't play no games, you stayed the same, I changed along the way, and now these things I say

I'm still hurt, it stayed behind, while I grew and become much more, but deep down in my core, I

Was still fighting a war, I thought was over, but inside a subconscious voice told me, you was still there

A glimpse a hope, but it was false, cause you're still a hoe, passed around but I'm not down to it

You just want me back, to attack me with a past you couldn't fix, and just broke me, like a record that repeats

But I knew when to quit eating that shit, I knew better, now I'm called a bitter idiot who never thought better

You was just a fling going in for lust, but my side didn't account for none of it, cause either road it was still a bust, but for me

Your crooked, took me for granted, you had me at "It's alright baby." Yous a hoe same mask never changed

But I did along the way, you ain't half the girls I've met, but never dated, cause you damaged me, now I'm left doubting

Every girl I come upon, it get serious then I'm out, I don't pout, or get angry, no matter what there's no trying to reason. With me, you made me this way and fuck ain't got no one to blame, so

 

Fuck It

I ain't maken no mistakes

Not again, I got my guards up higher, a level only few can reach, so

Fuck It,

Hoe, you lied to me, said I was different than the guys you've dated, turned out i was just baited, and mistreated, but not defeated so

Fuck It, you sucked then and still again, and don't think I'll let it happen once more, I'll turn my back on you, and that will hurt way more so

Fuck it

 

Loosing my respect for you hits way more than when I used to hit you up to say "hello, how you doin'" cause not a lot of folks know which way they be goin

You showed me how the world can be to those with hearts that look for true love, for chicks with hearts set for love, they will never find enough

And just because you seen a glimpse of it in me, don't mean I'm willing to give it so freely, it comes with a cost

From the bitch that scarred me, so you will become, but it ain't true, cause I seen a few who sought more than that

Learned more, become more aware, with nothing else to fear, when I came in here, amd there you were

Standing so lonely, arms crisscrossed, tears flowing like crazy, feeling a weight of regret through your mind, but I ain't the one who will be blinded by it

I've grown, threw in that towel long ago, now I'm here and doing better, that part I left, you stuck by it

But I must admit, I loved you so, more than what I could have handled, but that flame can be hard to be reignited

You fucked me up both mentally and physically, had me going crazy, seen days pass so fast it become so damn hazy, only booze slowed it down some

But when I was heavy with it, I turned bitter and heated with vengeance against the whole world, I blamed it

For all the mistakes I set myself up in, but that was back when, I had my innocence, and that's when it was stricken

Lost old friends, turned fake, but the truest, stayed behind and handled all my bullshit, they brought me back to reality

Before I could fuck myself over entirely, while drinking liquor by the day hoping I can finally rest, when my names pressed on an obituary, but those true real friend I had

Gave me a second chance, that only enhanced me to spit this way, I grew up and knew better, no longer bitter, and now when I look back I'm just glad that nightmare is all over, so I can spit it here saying

 

Fuck It

I ain't maken no mistakes

Not again, I got my guards up higher, a level only few can reach, so

Fuck It,

Hoe, you lied to me, said I was different than the guys you've dated, turned out i was just baited, and mistreated, but not defeated so

Fuck It, you sucked then and still again, and don't think I'll let it happen once more, I'll turn my back on you, and that will hurt way more so

Fuck it