my pain

look life isnt always fun and games.

it just dosnt work that way.

i dont want this feelin to go away.

my life has changed in so may ways.

i grow up with no father.

i often pondered if my father even said goodbye to my mother.

fuck Composure that motherfucker left me and my sister.

you where pose to be my protector, my directer.

to show which direction i should go.

my life went down a shit hole.

with no where to go.

i guess u can call it Vertigo.

cuz i dont know which way to go.

i grew up on rap and Rock'n'roll.

not knowin that by tha time i hit 17 yrs old i would be using rappad to rap.

im feelin like im about to Collapse.

but i cant cuz i dont got time for that.

time, damn where has it gone.

feels like i was just five yrs old.

now im 17 years grown.

movin form place to place cuz they keep gettin Foreclosed.

my mom was broke.

she is a fuckin joke.

she smoked coke and did dope.

i never really lived in a stable home.

i hope im not a clone of them.

if so then i wanna revoke them.

im not gonna mend my bond with them.

i pretend i dont Comprehend this situation which im in.

it was just a hoax.

damn why are there so many folks who are into coke.

its all just a fuckin joke.

now almost every kids smokes, or do shit they know thats not tha rite decision.

im tryin to better the world we live in.

but how can i when im outnumbered in this fight.

im white but i spit what im feelin on tha inside.

i believe in equal rights.

rights that are equal no matter ur color shape or size.

i hope yall are understandin what im tryin to imply in these lines.

mom, dad yall already said goodbye when u walked out of my life.

imma leave it at that.

im goin onto my next rap.