Pain

I grew up on a serious addiction

An obsession with aggression don’t make an impression

But it led me to do evil deeds

Reach speeds to 120 running of snitches leaving them stitches

For drug money but I find it funny because

The violence made my world sunny

I mean im fucked up beyond your imagination

Ill slice your head off clean and put it in lamination

Mount it on my wall for decoration

Its like a occupation or more like adrenaline sensation

I need to commit crime to go through life

I know its messed up but I got a wife and to deal with her shes lucky

Not to pay the price just remember never to take my advice!

 

Iv always had satanic thoughts but don’t

Panic my lyrics are healthy because the truth is organic

I’m so hooked on meth I wish I fell

To my death and took my last breath to end this life

Of corruption and sorry for this interruption

But im on the verge of eruption

These drugs are the only thing that keeps my mind sane

It takes me away from my pain and to act so insane

I wish I had something to celebrate so I could pop open

That champagne and have my brain drained

But I cant my thoughts are stuck up in my mind

I just need to do evil shit sometimes it helps me unwind

 

So there’s no hope to resolve my complications

Just lower your expectations and fuck these

Conversations im not stopping I have no explanations but my life

Story will be passed from generations

You might say congratulations but theres nothing im proud of

My actions result in nothing but pain and suffering

And will lead me to a life sentence in jail and all I have to do

Is inhale and exhale relax and face the facts that im mentally

Disturbed and crazy before I continue this scary life

And try and go home to my wife and settle down

Before I drown in serious emotion and start some more commotion!

 

Iv opened up and expressed how I feel

Now the reality is to reveal my insane ordeal

That some people might find unreal

The crazy thoughts and actions could put me in a loony bin

Because of all my serious sin and yet I still grin

Knowing that im fucking sick in the head

And I still feel dread but laying in my bed makes me think of all

The things iv said because im realizing im holding on to life

By a thread!!!!