Life's Still A Bitch [2024]
• Written by Coindrop
Coindrop's Notes
3rd single. This takes place in August 2024. Contradicting track. It's not about me wishing I was a kid again, it's about the things that once gave me peace have now become one of the main things that stress me out and depress me. Getting the things I've wanted, but still nothing's changed. I have nowhere to turn, referencing the opening track for the album. Enjoy.
//0:04-1:06
Another day on the schedule,
So glad I have money to spend or hold,
Need a Red Bull ‘fore I jet from home,
Need to stretch, positions are flexible;
Tenfold, can’t wait to close, stress unfolds,
Then so, seven more customers left to go,
Over a thousand each paycheck lent, I hope
My end goals feel like they’re gonna get approached;
And this year feels like a steppingstone,
Been sincere since I done kept my hopes
Up in here, it’s ready, get set and go,
Now this tear shed becomes my sweat that flows;
My coworkers get to know me, best of bros,
I go further on point like a decimal,
I’ve shown purpose in the joint, I've swept, I've closed,
I don't curse or get annoyed, and I get to grow;
Now thinking where I’m at with my messed-up soul,
The welcome mat at home now feels blessed with Ho-
Ly water, feeling peace, and expressing jokes,
And the real in me finally awakes, less pain shown;
Now this is the part where my life starts changing,
I got this far, I raised the bar high, crazy
How the calls I yelled to the star lights gave me
These different stages like instar, I’m amazed;
I stand excited, I can’t deny it,
Nobody but me can put out my candle fire,
Imma amplify it till my hands get tired,
Go and chant, my pride is bound to expand my titles;
It’s been some time now, damn, it’s fine though,
Sometimes your plans need a chance to have revival,
So here I sit, shift, work, not mad cuz I don’t
Have nothing bad happening yet, man but I know;
//Hook 1:07
Laziness kills ambition,
Anger kills wisdom,
Fear kills dreams,
Jealousy kills peace,
Ego kills growth,
Something that you want to show,
Doubt kills confidence,
Life’s a bitch, no way of stopping this;
//1:38-2:40
Okay, so now what? I’m still waiting
For the pain to go away and not feel any,
The days are still the same, got really steady
With the way I go portray thoughts God sent me;
And cuz I think when I link
The words of ink that my mind brings,
To grow my wings only to fly beneath
The trees in a dry spring, I can't breathe!
Just when I needed money the most,
I begged and pleaded one day I’ll glow,
Cuz when defeated, no way I’ll slow
Down, get real heated so they control;
My feelings, I was tired of weeping,
Tired of sleeping, but no sleep gets me
Tired, I’m screaming with my blood steaming,
One dream about me not succeeding;
The things that once gave me peace is
Now seeing me differently, I release this
Jolly person thinking everything is better,
But still hurts, nothing’s better once your DEAD sir;
AND I FEEL SO OVERWHELMED, no one cares,
So I share more stories where it’s told in swears,
Open areas no one dares to approach, beware,
Then I go wondering why my heart’s frozen here;
Always get chills when I write stuff this cold,
I stuff so many things I never did once in no
Shape or form, only just to look cool, just a soul
Who’s tryna understand himself, I come and go;
Every day with plans in itself, I want to find,
What’s holding me back! I’d reconcile, but I’d
Say that you don’t even know if life’s a bitch,
Or if it’s really just you that bitches about life;
//Hook 2:41
Laziness kills ambition,
Anger kills wisdom,
Fear kills dreams,
Jealousy kills peace,
Ego kills growth,
Something that you want to show,
Doubt kills confidence,
Life’s a bitch, no way of stopping this;
//3:12-4:14
Bro, I remember when I was a little kid,
I would sit in bed with my Pillow Pets,
Being indepen-dent, didn’t let
Shit hit the fan, it was dif-fer-rent;
Eat cereal straws and Gripz for one,
And we would just all get hip or stunned,
Having sleepovers, played with nerf guns,
But now we’re older, live, learn, love;
I was the kid who was used to withdrawing
From the crowd, cuz I found that shit haunting,
Now I face the crowd with drawings made in
Raw em-otions as of right now;
I miss the times when I was singing Kidz Bop,
And never once like Hip Hop, ever since I
Read Diary of a Wimpy Kid for fun,
It was inspiring for thinking big, begun;
To play games like Minecraft to design in flat
Worlds, build many things while the time passes,
And it faded away as I got older, I used my tac-
Tics and figured out that I can write raps;
But sometimes this shit’s just too much for me,
I want evenings of watching Goosebumps on TV,
Where Holidays felt like joy and had love,
But that shit only exist if I have my VR on;
The things that once gave me peace of mind,
From my childhood have each lost their highs,
I’VE WANTED my life to gain better as move along,
And it STILL finds its way to have trauma prove me wrong;
And it’s how I get suicidal cuz who the cry knows what
I don’t go through all my life? It goes high then low
Complaining all the time, and bringing it here like you show
Any gratitude, instead they wanna fight each other;
//4:15-5:02
I mean I can hang myself right now
And no one would even care if I shout,
They’ll just say I just want attention,
I can’t sit and waste my time offending;
I know what I want but I don’t know how to get it,
Am I going crazy?! I won’t go out this world ending
My life when it isn’t my time yet, I’ve spent
This entire rap contradicting myself, I’ve went;
To war with myself, with family and my friends,
Hell, I can’t even BELIEVE I’m even missing my ex,
I’ve felt like a tyrant, but stayed silent and let guys get
The best of me, anger built up piling-
Up my environment, my Leo the Lion gets
To trying to bite heads of ones who are inclining,
I’m spiraling down the abyss of Hell like I’m skydiving
Into the fire pits and start dying with the crying spirits;
New chapter, new beginnings feel like
Sort of the same story repeating each time,
I can’t keep winning cuz I keep giving these lies
That I’m worthy of these big leagues, REMINDED;
That it’ll only get worse from Here with my rage,
I’ve disappointed my parents first, with Every age
I hit, it’s another curse with fears Locked in a cage,
Until that changes, I don’t know if I have Patience;
//Hook 5:03
(To learn)
Ambition kills Laziness
Wisdom kills anger,
Dreams kills fear,
Peace kills jealousy,
Growth kills ego,
Something that you want to show,
Confidence kills doubt,
But life’s still a bitch, no way of stopping this;
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Coindrop
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