CHANGES

no ones perfect no one lives eternally un hurt and

un affected no one lives up to their word, DAMN

i preffered back when i never knew about murder

and when i never knew backstabber were earths curb kick

but then again i find myself swerving because i aint learnt shit

i just drown in my own mis-

ery its a mis-tery i missed a treat of splitting g's

i just threw what i had away when i got kicked to the street by family

all this procrastination and faggotry fucking round with OD's

wasted so many years in hospital beds with no feeling

oh please i aint here to get you feeling just for you to hear my feelings

and for you to hear my pleas i aint callin for jesus or sympthy

just forgiveness from the ones closest to me

i put my weight on their shoulders and fleed

im a fucking parasite a moulding flea

 

but now the scolding heat has burned my wings i cant infect another human being

bloods blue and freezing but my hearts been abused by steel knives

refused food and got real close to dying

i fucked up and im enclosed in my own mind minding

my own business

my friends own business but im still broke shitless

i cant shit coz i abused my insides liver slivered into a deep depression

i only see gold and silver its like being colour blind

but i only notice riches around me that im to fucked to find

fuck im dying or am i just not trying to escape this spiral

its like a pounded vagina a void in time and

its destroyed my life but once you knock shit down you rebuild and find-

the answers you reemploy your life restore your braincells

unlock your mentally made cell and you escape this ready made hell

coz ive been there i been to dark places and i mainly fell

i mainly failed i made mistakes and i needed to change

i span off track like a derailed train the opposite to spazzing on this track im back to training