Fear

I'm scared of death, not scared to death,

They're annoyed, I don't know, I'm paranoid-

Watched the ones who raised me cry over me, it's scary, October see,

I feel like my time is coming, but l've been saying that for years,

There's a chance I die young, so let's talk about some fears.

I did the devil's dance, I know my loved ones saw my tears,

Bipolar like a trance, I go in, wake up and I'm throwing up,

Took over 30 pills, still, it's like I can't die,

Dam broke, but it's like I can't cry.

Likely, I wanna die just to see my...

I love life though, but all l been through inside,

I say I didn't mean to-that's self-homicide.

I kept my kool, I lost it but I was smoking,

My chest hurts, am I slowly choking?

I was down, only thing to cheer me was bars like weight lifting,

But those bars turned into a cell-I was silent, then hate shifting.

Almost got hit by multiple cars, but I ain't cry like you kittens,

This ain't sneak dissing, I'll say your name, you bitch.

They into guns, should've known they'd pull a real switch,

I'm not violent, but I'll beat a bitch with a wife-beater, bitch

Life defeater, bitch , in my shoes, you can't walk a meter, bitch,

It'll take a bomb to make me flinch, but I'll still clinch.

Praying is weakness, I'm too tough to ask for help-"oh, that's rich."

Did you hear me stutter? I'll put that on my brother,

Knife taking blood out, like saying "cead, he cead."

It's fuck Maya until I hit the floor, but I might crack it,

Even in death, I'm breaking shit, yeah, I'm still attacking it.

Probably go to hell, I'll say fuck Maya in heaven,

Listening to this, I'm getting disapproval from the reverend.

She alive, but to talk to Maya, I gotta visit a graveyard,

She's dead to me, I already buried it-casket in a car.

Roberto can't die, you'll never see me in a hearse,

In a couple years, you'll see my state for the worse.

Talk about s*** not aging well, like a white male,

Rhyme scheme locked up in a cell.