Lonely Death
• Written by daveholdo
daveholdo's Notes
This song is about my first love, I'm talking about how basically, I'm still attached to her still, but mentally. I think only one other person can be my love.
FeeFee is featured on this song but because the of my reputation, I can't yet add them as a collaborator.
[Verse One]
Still lonely, I'm still breathing still waiting for you to come back/
So many days could be so many years what the fuck will happen when
I run out of tears?/ try and move on but my brain won't change gears/
People move on but how do you achieve that? I've been failing all my
life/ the position I'm in is killing me but no one else can take me by surprise/
Your my number one prize but I'll still be surprised if I get you back cos
I...
[Chorus]
Saw you in my dreams like it used to be/
My sweetheart I'll wait an eternity/
Thought I could live life without you/
(x2) Looks like I'm having a lonely death (x2)
[Verse Two]
Three years now some would think it's a joke the love you gave was
unreal now I feel broke/ a motive to seize the day not one can be found/
Maybe it's been delayed? I'm so fed up it's feeling like a crave/
Nothing is normal, nothing can portray the emptiness I feel
every fucking day/ I've bit my bottom lip I've stood on my own two feet
done my best to detach these feelings but they don't want to be
discrete/ I hope one day I'll wake up and all this will be a dream, but that
won't happen, nothing is ever as it seems/ I'm a total fuck up this is what
I believe/ now it's more clear of why you wanted to leave/ without you I got
nothing but your everything I need, this is my apology even though I can't
proceed must be why...
[Verse 3, by FeeFee]
Just the other day, my mother said love doesn't just appear
All the women, dozens disappear, and it wasn't just here
Where I step and remember our last kiss, the depression I can't mask this
The last chick I can't match this, maybe it was a bad pick, now i have this
Sad kick to my life because I fucking miss her, but how can I go on
Since now I hold on like she was everything, deep down I show off
That I'm fine but I'm actually breaking apart, making remarks
I'm on this fucking bed with a breaking heart, taking scars
That are invisible and I'm miserable, gotta toughen up
Wait until the day my pocket drops with a lucky charm
Wishes me a new life, but right now my fucking palm
Keeps cutting arms leaving these new bumpy marks
Like I have nothing left, remembered when she kiss me goodbye
Now she misses me all night and this pisses me all the time
Because I'm not sure what broke us to our separate ways
Go our different ways, now it's seven days and no reference came
To show me what happened, maybe I'll kill my mind with a pill of lies
Until I even get to feel alright maybe this is part of my tale of life
Who knows maybe have a lonely death, seems like I'm going dead
Nothing in my life is pointing ahead, so lets just flip a coin then
With my pistol loaded next to me, let's see what it is best to be
Dead or alive, head is life and tails is going to be rest in peace.
[Chorus]
Saw you in my dreams like it used to be/
My sweetheart I'll wait an eternity/
Thought I could live life without you/
(x2) Looks like I'm having a lonely death (x2)
