Bonus Track- A Letter To My Brother

 

Suicide surprise my mind, wonder why these thoughts I find

Under spotlights fees 'o life, unkind, decide, you're not worthy to breath air

Kill yourself we won't despair, we don't feel care, we won't go posting you pictures up there

No beware, still I will go on this path, rap till niggas see my wrath

But maybe by that time I'll pass, rectify my birth at last, never meant to be here in the first place

Signified by crazy birth rates, ladies 'sure wasted, center 'o grace

Mentor my taste, metaphor for rape, shady brothers touching up our mothers

Catching dem in alleyways they hover, power to da women who have suffered

Judge a valley only by its comfort, to it's sons 'n daughters, victims to tragedies 'o disturbed

Men who bent to solely capture rebirth, tragically da system let 'em reverb

Contort, distort, human emotions we've felt ignored, reward fo' da rhythm is but a short

Handed, attracted, 'n vapid, illusions 'o notions is now seen right through

Confusion is prove to mean light due, behind you, inclined to, speak on issues

Critique the misuse, obliques on tissues, fucking up my eye sight, tryna stay up all night

Running up my last fight, tryna make my way tight, taking foes to new plights

Can't spit from spite, no fright write, say I blast through old heights, view da kite

Far above your house 'n shit, no mo' dousing shit, stars ill love yo' shit

What I told my big homie right before he died, on the day I heard about it I just couldn't cry

Seen his sister ball her eyes out 'n I stood right beside, pen this verse to tell you 'round this time I hurt

But I been getting better, call you sister mine now, I mean she took my sweaters, hell I deemed her fine now

No more crying pressure, together we've felt shelter, wanna be her mister, I still need permission

I'm still fifteen, listen, I wanna be her nigga, her rock till death I'm wishin', plead for us to glisten

Pray for thus decision, envision, a life where her 'n I, copped a fly, home up high

On the day 'n skies, brand new phones for fun, I care 'bout you son, want to see your face

Disbelief in space, demand I leave her pace, we'd laugh 'n bond 'round dis case

Laughter filled rapper dreams, what we had for our means, weed 'n deed for da scenes

Pill popping pot 'o E's, but we was pretty bad, found that out pretty sad, but now I'm really glad

We taught ourselves to rap, got that ease on wax, doubt the quality backs

Flowers shelved da plaques, honestly I'm probably on lack, constantly I'm questioning my raps

Social commentary on da blacks, harmony is stressing to get back, paying debts is harder than twelve laps

Around the globe 'n smoke make it collapse, playing wit' your heart ain't in da art

Training stars to start painted da part, surroundings staying far apart from hopes 'n yards

 

 

 

Forever fueled by your spirit, put you in every lyric, remember when you could hear it

Before I questioned my visions, now I conclude onto tension, then you would've just feared it

Maybe way too brave for your own good, review all that's honed through hoods

Lone through woods, shady palaces I stood, knew that you was gone for good

Proven by the cold, suited to be sold, savages be told, beware of the road, scavenge with a goal

Hope I find a mold, rooted into issues too, notes I wind through tissues too, aware that we hold a truth

Know that proof, is on its way, ain't no need to stress all day, just dismember what I say

What I seed 'n what I pray, paint da pictures fo' da 'fraid, rest on mirrors 'at have prayed

Won't forget yo' brother babe, trained to pave a better lane, for you to go through da pain

Regret all the days I spent, lazy on the bed you wept, never suffered such I slept, bored you wit' da way I crept

Upset by the shove I dealt, crazy parts 'o nights I left, crying in my sight I felt

So goddamn fucking weak 'n sat, your heart seeking deep through stress, lying to myself as best

Confront feeling sick as shit, started vomiting 'n shit, scars is frolicking 'pon skin, seek the tarnishing of it

Erupt in wars I reaped 'n shit, long for more in life it seems, long for your dim light it seems

Seems the seams have erupted, now strife interrupted, it's corrupted, it's unable to be trusted

The knife 'o dreams disgusted, the spite I spout inducted, the darkest arts 'n fronted

The furthest I'm to comfort, ignite the routes 'o rusting, from dusk till dawn I'm nothing

But no you wouldn't let me think like this, you'd say I'm strong 'n to fulfill your wish

What I'll go couldn't bet on lows, hold her close even when I'm low, until I'm ill I will refill her spilt

Told I chose speakin' as oath, thank you for this life I owe, thank God that this day I rose

Drank 'n shit arrive at homes, not at mine that's way I chose, letter to my brother though

Without you I would be good as gon', thank you bro