Dead Man

How can I explain, I've been riding the same train with insane pain

Down my heart and now i fall in love the moment when it's payday

Wanted to ask her out since the ninth grade, but the times waved

To another year, saw her at a wedding as my sister's bridemaid

The flowers my sister throws lands in her hand, my eyes faced

Her directly, but she didn't gave me a sign of interest, a life of bitches

I understand it was just highschool but i know my mind was different

but how did I got into this world, feeling lost in this world

Explain God in these words how he gave me a shot of this girl

It was just random after highschool we were still talking

Both of us still walking both of us just still feel calling

But even in school, we stop talking about three times

Sometimes i just fucking seem to doubt these signs

Now I see lights shining between us, but i don't make a move

Everyday I just take a look as see disappointment, i hate this mood

Now I've have a bigger problem, I even now call her family

My mouth is the trigger's problem, seems like i make her happy

To let her know I'm still here to keep her laughing but sadly

I can't handle his stress that I still love her, how do I tell her

The way I feel her, not having guts is turning my own self's killer

For not making a move that is possible that we were made for each other

But each day I think, than I see another, wasting time, I could be tougher

If I knew she has a interest for me, but each moment just seems rougher

She's already with another man, and thinking about marriage

So they can live together, and just about now embarrassed

To tell her I still love her, I'm depressed I need a doctor

Maybe I'll see my mother, ask her to just see this shocker

And tell me what I should do, otherwise I'll just pray hard

Say God, please guide me to victory and help me stay sharp.

 

Chorus - I don't how to tell this even I'm too late but I love you

I remember all the fun, you and me had in the sun noon

But I need you in my life, and I hope to see you tonight

But we keep moving our ways and deep I want to cry

But I believe some time I'll soon will be just alright.

 

I can remember you once said, do you liked me as more than a friend

I lied to you, opening a door to a end, slipped on a floor that I stepped

To hide my shame because the truth was I did liked you more than that

All day I felt like I was torned apart, the last time I check I was born to start

to be ready for anything that hits me, but that day I wasn't prepared

I needed a day to breathe the air, wasn't sure if our names were a pair

Plus I also was worried about how people would think of it

Each moment I just blinked on it, that year is filled with shrinked moments

But as of today, you beg me to text, even if I'm a bed just to rest

Walking confused and tired like you, and my damn legs are just stressed

For carrying more than my weight, adding up invisible pounds

Keep having miserable doubts that are a physical route

To a path of failure, but I must never give up

The last time we hanged we were watching a sitcom

Seeing all these slip ups as the shit comes, listen to hiphop

Remembered when I was spitting I started the mintue with hiccups

Just a few memories mentioned to drink up, still this second I'm sick uh

Can't stomach this, one want to be stopping this, I can't copy this

Maybe if I go to a mall or something with a fucking shopping list

Of all the crap she wanted, she'll think twice before next move

How can i be in my best mood since now since my fist glued

Into the position to punch begging for my mission to launch

To get her back into my hands to have her attention almost

All i know is if I don't draw first sometimes you don't draw at all

Nothing will call my fall unless it's me, I just now saw the wall

That I'm blocked behind and stuck behind, I just need to break it

Use all my fucking strength to make the deepest break in

Maybe this is all a vision and once I take down my strong holds

This will be all over and I shall never go through the wrong hole...again.

 

Chorus - I don't how to tell this even I'm too late but I love you

I remember all the fun, you and me had in the sun noon

But I need you in my life, and I hope to see you tonight

But we keep moving our ways and deep I want to cry

But I believe some time I'll soon will be just alright.

And if I don't do anything I'm a dead man, so i better start

And hopefully nothing fucking will ever spark.