R.I.P Jerbear.

Just lost a friend who was a heroine addict,

Took out her demons and I'm staring right at it,

Sad angry going insane you could barely imagine,

So I write this as somewhat of a tribute,

Sweetheart i'm pissed dude, I already fucking miss you,

Punched walls along the inner hall's of your home,

I wasn't alone your mother helped me cope,

With your loss when she first called I went off,

Was in your room today beds soft,

Pillow's fluffed your dog was asleep,

I laid down and couldn't resist the urge to weep,

Why you? So soon you weren't even nineteen!

Second friend of mine to die in no time,

I hope I, can hold out cause I grow tired,

No lies I hope God won't try,

To take another life I am involved with,

Corey is back from College and that helps a lot with,

These emotions I am again facing,

Pacing around these empty rooms retracing,

The steps that I took to get here,

Lost multiple friends that's when I met fear,

You died on May third on such a quiet night,

I was with my soon to be, When you died that night!

We talked just earlier this week about how you missed me,

And how we were gonna see each other on the 5th dweeb,

Which is my birthday but it won't be the same,

Cause you won't be there, so it'll be so lame,

Your favorite song it plays, as I write this,

I softly hear the hook hit the right pitch,

Wondering what life is, dealing with this type shit,

My ex tried to apologize for your loss well fuck that hoe,

I remember when you punched that hoe straight in her fucking throat,

When you and I were with one another I felt safe,

You gave me the feeling of frosted flakes cause babe I felt great,

Sorry for the pun I know you thought they were corny,

But you still supported my recordings, smoked weed drank 40's,

With the crew you were my babe and we were four deep,

You were interested in skateboarding...,

Even though you know I know you did it poorly,

I thank you for the many years you gave me,

Supported me when I was acting insane these,

Other mother fuckers would've gave up thought I was crazy,

But you stayed and you rocked out,

You offered to knock out any bitch if they didn't watch mouth,

I can't really imagine not spazzing,

I remember us laughing every time we were stuck in traffic,

And how you always got mad when,

You'd get cut off and how good you looked in cut off's,

I am your spitter I am your mister this ain't our love song,

This is me trying to rap even though I feel like shit,

Another long road where I feel like this,

I feel this is all there is anymore,

Sorrow pain anger and remorse,

And of course the hatred for life itself that I am feeling,

I am reeling this cannot be real and,

You shouldn't have left so soon,

Never again will I be able to hold you,

With each passing moment I grow into a cold dude,

But I gotta keep pushing gotta keep going,

Life is short it'll keep throwing,

The hardest punches my way everyday,

So I write this for you Jerilyn.