Sunshower / INeedOxygen

My mind had a flash, resurfacing the past all the feelings coming back

Tell me that it’s trauma but fuck it I think it’s love

Everything I’m feeling is normal I’m not enough.

I need more oxygen in my blunt,

 

Walked out my house, gates surrounding the door, heard an ambulance and noticed iv'e heard this all before

It was pouring, neighbor on his porch smoking, got into my car, back indoors,

I was getting a calling, heart choking for hope, remembering about my divorce,

Feeling was so appalling, started rolling my window up and started driving,

Cold morning, my skin scorching, but the sun was shining,

Pulled up to the store, restoring my memory of my ex wife smiling,

The store was run down, grass growing on it's side, but it honestly looked alright,

Person at the pump, he had a gun in his pocket, almost like foresight,

 

Got out of my car, walked into a dollar tree,

Bathroom was broken and the cashier was sleeping, he had nice 'locks

Few people in there, but, one of them saw me,

Stared for a second and went back to the fridge, think I heard him mutter something about a bridge,

I walked up to him and asked if he had extra change,

Told him if he gave me some i'd be on my way, then he asked

If I was alone at my house straight to my face, got creepy and, I think he was laced,

His eyes twitching, I clutched on my phone anxious about today,

That's when I started sweating in the silence of his dazed expression,

That's when I should have walked away, run, anything,

 

My mind had a flash, resurfacing the past all the feelings coming back

Tell me that it’s trauma but fuck it I think it’s love

Everything I’m feeling is normal I’m not enough.

I need more oxygen in my blunt,

 

Woke back up in a hurry, I was tied down in the bathroom no one heard a peep

Tears going down my cheek, scared I would never live another week,

He pressed the gun against my head and he started calling me weak,

I wanted to retreat, but I was stuck kneeling down on the ground in defeat,

Bones frozen, my O2 levels starting to deplete, couldn't breathe,

I tried to scream, and scream, I fucking tried to scream, my head was steaming,

On the concrete, thought about my life decisions, diamond watches and AP's, the dream,

Never speak, thought I could make it out if I didn't make a creak

Then one moment later I couldn't see, thats when he, he, he shot me in quick spee-