holding me down

 

Ever since I was a kid, I thought I was special

It wasn't in a good way, I didn't think I had potential

I got tired of shit, and stopped being careful

You fucked with my mental, so I stopped being gentle

I wished I was dead, started writing rap music

You put those lies in my head, made me feel stupid

What did you expect, when you found out I was losing?

I wasted my time, 'till I found out you were just confusing

You're supposed to be good for me, but you're just holding me down

You've never given me a real apology, all you do is whine and pout

I fucking hate you, an I hate all your friends too

Left me to deal with my issues, I was alone, so I always chose booze

I was barely into youth, you just said I was confused

I got consumed in all my darkness

I turned crazy, I was heartless

I had no concious, I wanted your fucking carcass

Fuck you, and everybody you related to

Not including me, since you threw me away like an old shoe

Am I not good enough? I thought I was tough

Used to wish I was a thug, turning to drugs

Got myself fucked up, messed with the law, an I got stuck

Yeah, look at me now, you say you're proud

But only to a crowd, behind that face, you're a goddamn cow

You might as well spit on my face too, an call me a grouch

Whatever, I'm happier than you could ever be

I got more money, and I'm starting a real family

I'll be turning your fantasy into my damn reality