Redandblu

Guilt

 

 

Live through it all

Made me renewed, I'll still wait on that call

These memories surround me still, like the blood soaked Dahmer's walls

This could change my life, but I still wait on the whispering karma, my well deserved downfall

See me lose it all in seconds, Muse that it's all my fault, I laugh for a moment

Maybe you will notice me, make a community like a dharma, could've been chosen

But her?

That's a romance stolen

You ain't need to fix what's broken, it's cold and it's hopeless, for me still

 

But I see her

And wish I could be her

Feel you through another

Break my heart, watch it tear through

Her eyes, through her eyes

And watch me try to rise again

Try to rise again

 

Kept me to myself, to keep me from breaking

That striking feeling, keeps burning, turning my hatred over to cater to her again

Left me seething over and over till I could take no more, past saving

Left the house with a weapon of my own making

Flowers bloomed in my mind

Finally free of the angry lines weaving and tethered, my body flying

I'm rising and baking, reach the front door, she answers and I-

 

But I see her

And wish I could be her

Feel you through another

Break my heart, watch it tear through

Her eyes, through her eyes

And watch me try to rise again

Try to rise again

 

Red and blue I hear as I run, back to the ground now, can still hear your shrieks

Feel like I shouldn't be grinning

But my head knows my feelings are true,

But nothing beats

Being the only one in your life that your gonna lose

 

I could try

To attempt to apologise, but I really don't care enough to come out of my hide