Lost cause

isolated here. surrounded by my fears

if i don't decide to win, would it be worth my existence

 

let lightning strike me, honestly i crave the pain

these scars they don't cut deep enough for hurt to fade

so I'll wait till i waste all

the time i got remaining

cus mama told me, honey time don't wait.

 

for u-oh oh-oh

 

cant stop thinking, cant stop sinning, child of the world so it cant stop spinning

me into a loophole between death and living,

thought i was saved but my minds still chained.

hearts still holding on to a feeling that fades

Walls keeps closing in, self control slips away

so i don't know where to go

i don't know where to turn.

 

turn to God, they said, but i then end up leaving him...towards sin

i was never made for that path...so my head is on a whim

onawhimOnawhimOnawhimOnawhim

its doing cartwheels, his face feels too far to see

my eyes are open, i can find him

but I'm just a lost cause

my faith will never be enough to get me through to heaven’s gate

been trying to climb but the weight of my sin will always seal my fate.

I'm reaching for the light, but then the darkness pulls me back in place

I'm calling out His name, but my voice echoes into outer space.

 

yeah they tell you it is hard to trip and fall and but then you get up

don't tell you how hard it really is to trip and fall and get up

a million times, and every fall, a little bit of your hope dies

you cant decide, to walk or crawl, a war inside of your own flesh and skin

flesh and skin is all i am, nothing within

the very thing that i choose eats at my soul from within

 

so am i far too gone?

Has God really turned away

I made too many promises

that I knew I would break.

 

but I don’t blame Him though,

I’m the one who walked astray.

I’m a long way from being saved...

but if He hasn’t—tell Him: wait.