RELAPSE

the thought of relapsing has crossed my mind, trying to recover in my own time.

wanting to pick it all up again, knowing that if i do, i’ll lose everything i work for.

trying not to fall back into the old habits anymore

not wanting to overdose on the floor.

relapsing is the thing i can’t stand,

but no one is willing to lend me a hand and give me a chance.

but being drug has put me in a trance.

thrown me into a world where on my own i don’t even stand a chance.

But on the other hand i seriously don't have anyother plans.

nothing would be better than relying on myself

i seriously don't think it's that bad i don't need help

just trying to deal with it and every blow that has been delt

no one can relate to any of this because you have never felt

so hopeless and thoughtless ever so flawless

Two weeks clean and i feel so nauseous

being in big ground feeling so anxious,

watchin who i talk to gotta be cautious