Look Back
• Written by HazeZ
Looking back on it today
I just don't think I was ready
Till you got up and left me
Used to be so carefree
I'd analyze things less carefully
Life hadn't fucked up my mentality
Used to be you and me
Now its just me up in the galaxies
Dreaming my wildest fantasies
Reliving all the tragedies
Trying to find some remedy
So I don't end up with my brains splattered
Like Kennedy
My mind only has so much capacity
Sometimes I feel they're after me
In the dead of the night
I can feel them watching me
Taunting me and mocking me
I'm haunted and shocked to see
That after two years my past still isn't done with me
And I can no longer be
The kid everyone wants me to be
I killed that kid a long time ago
With a stitches and a rope to choke
The life outta me
*Chorus*
I used to stay up all night
Cause I was so restless
I actually felt life wasn't pointless
Now I look back
I wonder how you could have done this
Left me just like I mean nothing
Now my bodies decomposing
From the inside out
I could feel my heart when you ripped it out
But those times are gone now
And my hearts so cold its basically gone now
Everything's different and I am alone now
Maybe its for the best
That way I can't hurt anyone but myself
I push everyone away
I don't need anyone to worry about me
Don't ask if I'm ok
When you said you were better off without me
I'm trailer trash im poor as shit
Yeah I think I remember exactly what you said
But if I'm trailer trash
You're just an ignorant bitch
Who can't forgive anyone worth shit
Its pretty sad all I can remember is
The shit you said towards the end
When you said you had enough
And I got shit from all your friends
*Chorus*
Fast forward abit
Lets change the topic
Done talking about the bitch in the tropics
Shes the reason I'm so pshychotic
Shes a disease and I need antibiotics
It's idiotic she made my life chaotic
But I'm gonna smoke some chronic
And calm down so I don't loose it
Talking about a bitch that's just useless
All her friends are spineless
When we stay righteous
They talk shit but they won't find us
I'm just gonna brush this off
Try not to get pissed off
Last time I did I got drama with the law
Lately I'm cutting people off like a chainsaw
I ain't got time for the drama
I don't take shit from my own family
Even they've bothered me
Since I was 13
Now I'm 17 and I can't feel a damn thing
Sometimes I wish I would stop breathing
But then I think maybe life is worth living
After getting so fucked up problems start disappearing
And when I sober up it all comes crumbling
Down again on top of me
Crushing me and stopping me
From finishing anything
*Chorus*
Looking back
I'll probably never get that time back
So I stay high not rich
So I'm always buying dime bags
Refuse to eve get attached
To a chick that don't like me back
So fuck it I'm not gonna waste time with that
*Chorus*
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HazeZ
Member since April 17 2015