Spilling

I like you, I really do. It’s just that I haven’t got used to you,

And I can’t remember how long it takes or what I should do but all I know is i’ve still got some shit to get through.

And I don’t know if I can do it just by being with someone new

I think about him a lot,

And i know I will get over him eventually it’s just a cause of if I want to or not.

My friends tell me he’s a dick and of course I need someone who appreciates what they got.

But don’t you think it’s harder to say that stuff when it’s not you experiencing it?

I try so hard to believe what they say and feel like at the end of the tunnel a light has been lit

And I keep trying to find someone who sparks up that match to rekindle my spirit and sew up that split,

But it just seems like i’m pulling at loose threads and i’m handing on by each piece so i don’t lose it.

Theres just this gap that I try to fill but i’m so scared of overfilling

because last time it just spilled over everything

And I thought i could clean it up but having fling after fling after fling

But it does nothing.

I dont know what to do

Maybe i’ll find this in a year or two and i would have done everything i needed to

And all the shit i am going through, i would have got through

And that maybe, maybe i’ll love someone new.