Drained

So you got a bad feeling recently, not talking frequently

plus you got a feeling that he’s fucking round secretly

But you at a loss because you’ve grown dependent,

don’t want to give up on your time thats been spent

feels like this king size bed's gotten wider

like an outcast in your own home, an outsider

try n' get on his phone but he’s changed his pin

then you start to ask him about where he’s been

why he’s gone, why he’s late, out till dawn, tell me straight

and he gives you stories that he’s just been working real late

the temptation builds, and you see where he goes

and you see him, not alone, through the cab windows

feels like you’re in one of them TV shows, cus in the end he was never just chilling with his bros

you turn concietful, throwing possessions to street-full

next time you catch him its a heartbreak sequel,

you don’t know what to do decision decision,

but your thoughts tear through your head, decision collision

but your decision for collision with the side of his jaw,

seems to be the only thing made sense anymore.

 

he’s been staying at a hotel these last few days,

and he’s picked up his shit from the car park bays

and as time went by you though the wound would heal

but the tears on your face have been hard to conceal

and your thoughts in accumulation of running to the station

trying to catch a train, to a plane to another nation

you go out one night, try and forget for a while

and those shot glasses around you they pile and pile

wake up in a daze, sayin never-ever again

turn around, fuck no, why’ve i slept with him

he was his best friend now i look like a slut

maybe its not that bad but a feelin’ in my gut

that this stories gonna get blown way outta proportion

thats the way it is y’know, chinese distortion

my words will get twisted like vocal contortion

and everyone says ignore it, but its easier said-than-done

regret it every night, but trying to find the light,

that flight you were thinking of is looking alright

new start, new place, new you, new face

get to a place where these memories erase

you go to click the button then you feel a vibrate,

and he’s heard through the vine of yo' plans to migrate

pleading to come round cus he misses your sound

that way you stopped talking just seemed profound

you don’t know why but you get in your car

only this time you’re going to his house not a bar

 

excuse state of my room, not had people in a while

glad we could talk, stop being so hostile

i got a lot of things i want to say,

and i hope that you don’t take them the wrong way

now i love you baby, and i know you love me,

at least you did, before you tried to move a country

now I’m being serious, those visions were delirious

will you please say something? stop the mysterious?

there was a time when all i’d think about was you

your face, your smile and all the shit we’d been through

fuck, that times maybe still going on,

and my love for you no its still not withdrawn

but theres things about you that drive me insane

and it got to the point that where my right part of brain

was telling me to do wrong and sing a swan song

with a girl i met before you that i’d been stringing along

and if I got a delorian i’d go back in the story’n

stop myself and maybe we’d be all hunky and dory'n

instead, you’re staring at me across the room

with a bag of my shit ripped and broken I assume?

fuck, from the 5th floor not much survived that fall,

you know i’ve been left with nothing all

when a couple of months ago she was saying i was the one,

and now we’ve both had sex with a different person

fuck, i’d have let bygones be bygones,

but as she closed the door she said bye, gone.

but baby i just need a shoulder to cry on