Scars (Tribute to my fake GF Van...

Verse 1:

My parents claim that I'm a "disgrace to humanity"

Is it just me or is this anger turning into insanity

My dad says I'm stupid, he's claims I'm insane

My mom calls me mental, fucked up in the brain

I'm out of the house now, going bar-to-bar I started cutting when I was 12, I still have the scars

Yesterday I robbed a store and popped some pills

I express my depression from my hip-hopping skills

I'm going use music and rap to my advantage

Fuck these memory scars, times to use a bandage

I'm gonna rap, and lyrically write some music

Take these memories, turns them into raps and use it

I can see clearly now, I can see the traps Fuck that,

I'm not going through another relapse

I'm not afraid of my memories,

I will not fear it Take my stories,

and write them down as lyrics

 

Verse 2:

''Felt like time stood still when she kept getting sicker

my cloud got thicker

only thing that cured me was my best friend ''liquor''

looking at her sleep

while my thoughts are drowning deep

Damn who knew lifes can fade so fast

even tho her memory will forever last I'll

keep on singing about her past

while my heart shatters when I think of her laugh

she was the person that stood me close forever by my side

now I'm holding this rose I can see her getting lowered but to me she flies

she's with dad now looking down on me cry

but my scars are deep and the hill is steep

I keep on climbing for each day that pass just to make it last

but is it getting any better? that's why im writing you this letter...'

 

Verse 3:

I've gotten up the same amount of times

that I've fallen down Pound for pound

Matched round for round

And a fire sparks that will never go out

Never be doused

Clowns outta town I ain't playin around

That circle route If i sound foul

Then blow the whistle but that ain't stoppin me

from breaking my bounds now I may look like a mouse

but I scare elephants in the room out the house

And I doubt I've found an inch of stable ground

but I'm able to drown my doubts with faithful shouts

And as I wait to pounce the hateful sounds

Can't phase me now Or my fate that hounds Hate me now?

When will it stop? Discrimination every day in every nation

every single minute in this big abomination

I've been patient

But the payments

past due for all this wasted pain and Suffering we gotta make do

With what we came with

But the gain is overrated

I don't wanna be a part of all this fame

hatred game

tainted never be the same

I've faded To black And I don't just mean rap

When will it end? Fake friends Faded out your life

Like faint pens Make you bend over

Backwards But when you crawling back

They backing out the back door different plans

different people

And you left to fend for yourself again

Self dependent Welfare you in debt again

Health don't mean a damn when you got no wealth

to pay the goddamn apartment rent And you partly dead By next weekend You sit in bed cause you sick in the head

And bitch in lead and throw fits instead

And the words don't mean crap you seeing red

And feeling dread

ain't no meds that could do the healing or fix the mess

But you'd do anything to get away from the pain so you take one pill then

You drink the rest