Pearly Gates

So many questions begin flooding my brain.

Am I ready for judgement? I've made a lot of mistakes.

Will I be honored with God's grace or get dropped off in the flames?

Would I go back and live the same or have a list of what to change?

It's no wonder that not many men Ascend into heaven./

Instead, we end up on corrupted paths to pleasure our senses./

In love with them but, senseless.Worshiping worldly possessions./

Hellbent on boarding a one-way vessel dead set on descending./

But I'm beginning to live better now. No pretending./

Now's the time to represent it proud. So my intention/

is connecting to a higher realm. There's no pretentiousness/

about it, just my solemn vow. In a split second/

all the sound and lights around went dark as that spark in my chest/

started flickering in and out. With my vision gone, I was left/

listening to my heart slow down. All of my thoughts expected death./

With my last breath, I somehow sprouted wings & rose up from flesh./

Suddenly I'm in the presence of the pearly gates./

Nothing but love around, completely empty of hate./

I'm feeling especially great, but what's to come of my fate?/

I wasn't ready to be faced with my grave at such an early age./

So many questions begin flooding my brain./

Am I ready for judgement? I've made a lot of mistakes./

Will I be honored with God's grace or get dropped off in the flames?/

Would I go back and live the same or have a list of what to change?/

All the lies, causing pain, used too many drugs to name./

Constant rage against my mom. I should have honored her name./

All the drama that I gave my Pop and not enough praise./

Total arrogance displayed, so vein. Truly ashamed./

But then God reminded me of all the positive traits./

That disabled man Dave I was there to embrace./

or the unconditional love for my son. He thinks I'm great./

And met a woman so amazing who looks past my mistakes./

And after all of those questions are done with flooding my brain/

I think I'm ready for judgement. I've learned a lot from mistakes/

I'm honored with Gods grace and won't be stopped by the flames/

If i went back I'd live the same but bring a list of what to praise./