Broken Girl

High heals click and clack across the pavement

The train screached to a halt at my station

Mamma always said I'd to make it

To the top but to me top is a strange land

Flashing lights, concerts, prosthetic implants

Being treated like a queen now

Oh your highness how can I help ya

I just wanna scream get the fuck out now

I'm writing a hit, I can't be disturbed

Shit, who am I kidding, this is absurd

I'm writing the same damn song write every time

I bout the struggle I don't have no mo

Last I heard I had made it

Louvitons, pay checks, gold rings gourmet

No more drowning in my sorrows I've payed all of my debts

The past is the past

I gotta stop regurgitating it

I don't live there no more

There really ain't no place for it

I owe everyone that helped me

That would be disgracing them

Especially now with the state of things

Wrong things, right things

Stacking up them diamonds

Pumped full of venom cause these bitches wanna try me

Although to my face they talk real nicely

I say fuck em all yeah they can bite me

Do they really thing there opinion matters to me

I've spent my entire life being told who to be

Time the break for hook now, sung inspiringly

Scream fuck the world, loudly, sensationally

Give this generation something they can lose themselves in

Make them fucking haters jump out of their skins

Cause they'll never be on your level

That's what your idols taught you,

thats the typical music that made you feel better

Back when your life was full of rain, now it's all sunny weather

But this thunderstorm inside me hasn't gotten much better

But now I'm that person, I'm the writer of the letter

The letter I send to my fans cause I have so many

It would take my whole life to respond personally

I swore I'd never do that back when it was done to me

But now I've got so much shit going on that its my reality

Sia said big girls cry when there hearts are breaking

Mamma would cry if she saw the choices I've been making

Oh wait, she can, it's all over MTV

Can't broken girls get some fucking privacy

Jesus Christ, I'll even say please

I'll beg you on my knees for a reprise from the insanity

That this lifestyle keeps throwing at me

The record label won't accept this, why would they? it's whining

They're ain't even a chorus,

I'm just going straight through

I don't even know what I'm trying to do

Just heard this beat and thought about what was true

This the kinda shit I write for me, not you

Where were you all when I needed you

Oh wait I was unknown back than,

Back in the days of mixtapes I gave you for free

They're still up there, check em out if you please

Back when I was playing hide and seek

With fame and fortune I guess I finally found it

But oh hell no, the games no over yet

No it's not over yet and I'm still the seeking

I'm still trying to find these demons that are hiding

In plain sight cause I feel em all the time

Givein' me stage fright, keeping me up at night

Keepin' me dark and broken when I should be shining bright