Calling My Name

(Hook)

 

You see me acting like a savage,

But I'm just trying to manage,

And maintain some sanity although I feel too damaged.

Broken beyond repair,

But hoping with a prayer,

And I've found myself lonely once again I fear.

At times I truly felt that we could make this shit happen,

And other times I could only settle my depression with rapping,

But you've been sapping, all of my energy,

That's something I wouldn't wish on my own worst enemy.

Not something that should be coming from someone who befriends me,

But I guess I was begging for it,

And you just tried to award it,

Every day I mourn it cuz my love was never dormant,

I wore it on my sleeve just wishing that you'd adore it.

And now I've hit a point where I know I should just give up,

But how can I give this closure when I love you so much?

I'll just invest more time and stay unapologetic,

But regardless this love I could never regret it.

 

(Hook)

 

The shit you do to me is no fault of your own,

I'm alone with this homegrown desire inside my soul,

And you've always remained calm and you've kept things truthful,

Shown me you're just as smart as you are beautiful.

I'm unusually musical when I'm thinking of you,

Just want to emphasize all your perfections that I view.

Every word that you say to me, I'll cherish for eternity,

See I've already started and I promise that's honesty.

You see I know what you deserve and I'll try my best to provide,

Because you're my only option and it's something I can't hide.

I'm either with you with pride or it's definite suicide,

I confide shameful thoughts inside all of these lines.

Trying to hold back my feelings is something I've had to do,

But every opportunity I get I pay a compliment to you.

I tell you you're miraculous,

More gorgeous than an actress,

But when I discuss a relationship your mad that we go back to this.

 

(Hook)

 

Please understand my frustration and sympathize for a minute,

You can't expect my love to fade when I say it has no limit.

Look at it like this, you have one goal in mind,

And when it seems real close, your whole life seems fine.

But when it's outta reach you feel like you soul's been breached,

And you have to take a seat because you can't stand on your feet.

And a reasonable perspective is what you're trying to keep,

But you gotta go on pushing until you and her can meet,

And force yourself to stay close but keep your anger discrete,

Even though the disappointment plays in your head on repeat.

And you can't just retreat because you're in far too deep,

And other parts of your life have just become obsolete.

Because nothing else can compete,

Even though it stays bleak,

But you need to keep believing or there's a chance that you might leap.

Leap above the street and splatter on the concrete,

Because only death can stop this cruel feeling of defeat.

 

(Hook)

 

So we discuss it but it's like we're going through the motions,

Saying all the same shit when I'm transparent with emotion.

She's provoking my devotion and I can't help it,

I'm just praying my words grasp her heart and then melt it.

I've begged God for this and sought help from everyone,

They all say it looks like I'm in a cliche rerun.

A dumb one that ends tragic, the fact is I'm pissed at this,

I just want to wreak havoc on anyone that she's with.

But back to our conversation, my confidence met deflation,

The thought of her love had always been my only inspiration.

But she keeps shaking her head and just keeps saying "no",

She's rejecting all of me, my true self is what I've shown.

But knowing it's hopeless I still try and argue,

It's my last chance and determination is my virtue.

So through this woe I say everything that I know

And it just ends up getting her angry so...