Goodbye

Year 7, Bondi beach, where I met you,

Wish I made a better effort to respect you

I hope you didn't think I was trying to reject you

as a mate, I was shy, no disrespect dude.

Became I good mate to me for a number of years,

I type this shit up so gutted, face running with tears.

Remember Coogee nights getting drunk off cheap beers,

16 and 15 having fun with our peers.

 

Unique as they came, you earned a brotherly claim,

Never met a guy as patient and so loved as you Jae

You leaving here left me fucked in the brain with a punnet of pain,

With the realisation that I'd never see you again.

I know I'm lacking in what is essentially lyrical precision

But this is what grief does, like a surgical incision

in the heart, hurts for birthdays, Christmas, this shit in opinion

is just bogus bruv, I know this, I know that you're still living.

Denial is a strong thing, and this is wishful thinking,

But I hope I'll see your lanky ass again up in my kitchen

sipping absinthe like a spastic out of plastic, man I miss it.

And the swans are going well in the comp, hope we win it.

 

I know this shit just makes me laugh, remember when you lost it

in a pool game when your black ball slid into the pocket,

Snapped the pool cue on the table, barely able to contain myself,

Laughed until I cried, then you smiled, knew I was blazed as hell.

 

Youd always hit the gym, but then you never had a health diet.

I wish I said something, instead I kept myself quiet.

Not to intrude on your business was my intention,

But now I'm full of regretment, self resentment and questions,

Surely it's something a good mate could have mentioned,

But i didn't and i guilt myself with irrational reflections.

 

Your presence was precious and your laughter was endless.

And please know I respect this, happy memories you left us.

We'll love you to our deaths and hold your memory with pride,

My 50th rhyme dedicated to a close friend who never left our sides

And I'll proudly call you my mate for the rest of my life.

24 months have passed and I miss you....goodbye <3